Freakshow (feat. Maria Lessing & Future Palace) - Samurai Pizza Cats

I gotta run far I gotta run far from here I gotta carry on, yeah My heart beats in a fast speed And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks My heart beats in a fast speed And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks, so loudly, so clearly I'm 24 and I don't seem to know shit about myself So much fog in my head, working no end Some days I wake up and I'd rather be dead Sadly this is my reality, every day's a challenge Though I try to show the best of me My heart beats in a fast speed And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks I gotta carry on, I've suffered for too long I have to run far away from my past Oh, I gotta hold on to the faith that I have Maybe someday, I'll be proud what I've done I've been running through flames Running, running through flames My heart beats in a fast speed And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks I clench my teeth, I stamp my feet Beating myself up for feeling more than weak Dissociative behavior I'm a slave of my past and I hate it My heart beats in a fast speed And I can't breathe 'cause my fear speaks I gotta carry on, I've suffered for too long I have to run far away from yesterday I gotta hold on to the faith that I have Maybe someday, I'll be proud what I've done I've been running through flames Burning up, burning up, yo The flesh down to the bones But I'm still standing up Yeah, I'm still standing up Yeah, I'm still standing up I've learned so much but these days have been so hard I've made mistakes but they taught me how to grow I've been so hard on myself for far too long I'm still so young, so I gotta carry on So I gotta carry on Gotta hold on (gotta hold on) To the faith that I have (to the faith that I have) Maybe someday (maybe someday) I'll be proud what I've done I've been running through flames So I gotta carry on Carry on, carry on

I revisit an old phase of mine This feels too familiar, oh, I can't, oh, I can't Play on repeat again I act just like a record that got stuck Oh, this phase sucked so much It's scary how quickly we can switch to who we used to be Delete me out of your memory Erase all of what wasn't meant to be Back in this wrestling ring Fighting for something I can't get Tell me, what am I fighting for? I punch myself right in the throat And scream, "What are you doing to us?" This pain makes me realize there's no one who wins this game Delete me out of your memory Erase all of what wasn't meant to be I've tried, I've tried so many times to think straight I can't deny, I wish we took another way Delete me out of your memory Your memory Your memory Delete me out of your memory (out of your memory) Erase all of what wasn't meant to be (what wasn't meant to be) Delete me out of your memory Erase all of what wasn't meant to be Delete me out of your memory (out of your memory) Erase all of what wasn't meant to be (what wasn't meant to be) I've tried, I've tried so many times to think straight I can't deny, I wish we took another way Delete me out of your memory Your memory

You know I I don't get why I need to live with all of this I'll never be one of you I feel so misplaced, I just need my own space I've seen way too much of your Hate and disgrace that I've lost all my faith (You will never...) (You will never...) (You will never...) You will never push me down You will never see me fall the same 'Cause I have seen, I have seen All the things you've done I will never feel so lost I will never be suppressed again By such a weak, such a weak Such a weak, man I know everybody likes The way how I act that I am part of all of this But darling, I'm just an illusionist But I think that I can't deny That I wished I was more alike Someone with your type of consciousness 'Cause I won't miss a thing that I'm living with (You will never...) (You will never...) (You will never...) You will never push me down You will never see me fall the same 'Cause I have seen, I have seen All the things you've done I will never feel so lost I will never be suppressed again By such a weak, such a weak Such a weak, man And I taught myself how to be my protector Sometimes you need to save yourself From someone considered a lover Sometimes life can turn people so bitter That hurting someone doesn't even matter And I hope I can save myself (Save myself) (You will never...) (You will never...) You will never push me down You will never see me fall the same 'Cause I have seen, I have seen All the things you've done I will never feel so lost I will never be suppressed again By such a weak, such a weak Such a weak, man

With every breath When the compass is not aligned With every step In the darkest hours when hope is drifting away Reach for the sky And leave nothing as it seems Close your eyes And follow your dreams Your dreams, your dreams Close your eyes And follow your dreams With every breath When the compass is not aligned With every step In the darkest hours when hope is drifting away Reach for the sky And leave nothing as it seems Close your eyes And follow your dreams Your dreams, your dreams Reach for the sky And leave nothing as it seems Close your eyes And follow your dreams

(Come down to the freakshow) (This right here is overdue) (Freakshow) (Not, not, not, not) (Not a freak? It's not for you) I learned a lot just being forward with you (being forward) Like how you love it rough, I know, know, know (know, know) Nobody tryna get you in trouble, trouble, no You could do that on your own Freak of nature in my head No one here would understand me No one here would understand No, no one, no one, no one Every night, she's in my bed Beggin', "Please, don't leave me lonely" Don't leave me alone again, 'lone again (c'mon), no Welcome to the freakshow Anyone could come through Not a freak? It's not for you Not a freak? It's not for you (not, not, not, not) Come down to the freak show This right here is overdue (Freakshow) (Not, not, not, not) Not a freak? It's not for you I'm who your parents warned not to look in the eyes (in the eyes) Good boy, go stay in the light (the light) Siren, make men go wild (go wild) That girl, no bark, all bite (mmm) Hear my name in whispers only (yeah) Devilish, bad boys, call me (yeah) Widow kiss, leave you lonely Picture this, feminine flawless I feel a little bit lawless I ain't got time to be messin' 'round with cautious Honest men who be lacking in their confidence I want somebody cool with sin Cheat days on weekdays Don't care what your friends say Jealousy is a sweet taste Read my lips, or my hips I'm always in Pretty boy, I always win Welcome to the freakshow Anyone could come through Not a freak? It's not for you (ooh) Not a freak? It's not for you (not, not, not, not) Come down to the freak show This right here is overdue (Freakshow) (Not, not, not, not) Not a freak? It's not for you Freak of nature in my head No one here would understand me No one here would understand No, no one, no one, no one Every night, she's in my bed Beggin', "Please, don't leave me lonely" Don't leave me alone again, 'lone again, no