Even Though I Say - Saint Asonia

Daddy, I'm afraid, won't you stay a little while? Keep me safe 'cause there's monsters right outside Daddy, please don't go, I don't wanna be alone 'Cause the second that you're gone they're gonna know Before he went to bed, he grabbed my hand and said "Just 'cause I'm leaving It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, I know you're scared When I'm not here, but I'll always be right there Even though I'm leaving I ain't going nowhere" Dad, we've all been late and Uncle Sam don't like to wait He's got a big old plane that's gonna take me far away I know I act tough but there's a churning in my gut 'Cause I just can't call you up when things get rough Before I left, he hugged my neck and said "Just 'cause you're leaving It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, I know you're scared I might be here, but I'll always be right there Even though you're leaving I ain't going nowhere" Daddy, I'm afraid, won't you stay a little while? I never thought I'd see the day I had to say goodbye Daddy, please don't go, I can't do this on my own There's no way that I can walk this road alone Daddy grabbed my hand and said "Just 'cause I'm leaving It don't mean that I won't be right by your side When you need me And you can't see me in the middle of the night Just close your eyes and say a prayer It's okay, boy, I ain't scared I won't be here But I'll always be right there Even though I'm leaving I ain't going nowhere" I ain't going nowhere

Stay patient All I have to do is stay patient Life's changing So I might have to make some rearrangements I roll the dices and I feel so alive and then I'm lifeless And I don't like it But honestly, the irony is priceless 'cause I'm caught on the fence (The fence) I'm either happy or I wish I was dead (Or I wish I was dead) My life is a mess (A mess) I kinda like it even though I'm depressed (Oh, oh, oh) I'm caught on the fence (The fence) I'm either happy or I wish I was dead (Or I wish I was dead) My life is a mess (A mess) I fucking love it even though I'm depressed (I fucking love it even though I'm depressed) Only call it a living 'cause I'm still alive Only open up the doors if they're suicide, yeah I'm anxious to my core but I'm doing fine Try to keep my distance from the law Keep my peace of mind, yeah You can't change in a day So I spend every second taking care of my brain I might fill up all the emptiness with diamonds and chains And if you wanna get to steppin', you'll get punched in the face But it's alright I'm caught on the fence (The fence) I'm either happy or I wish I was dead (Or I wish I was dead) My life is a mess (A mess) I kinda like it even though I'm depressed (Oh, oh, oh) I'm caught on the fence (The fence) I'm either happy or I wish I was dead (Or I wish I was dead) My life is a mess (A mess) I fucking love it even though I'm depressed Well, even though I'm depressed, I'm not sorry I don't wanna leave this bed at all I've got a brick on my chest And hell is gripping my legs And there's a demon, he's ten foot tall But honestly, he doesn't seem like much of a threat, yeah I'm caught on the fence (The fence) I'm either happy or I wish I was dead (Or I wish I was dead) My life is a mess (A mess) I kinda like it even though I'm depressed (Oh, oh, oh) I'm caught on the fence (The fence) I'm either happy or I wish I was dead (Or I wish I was dead) My life is a mess (A mess) I fucking love it even though I'm depressed (Yeah, oh)

You know what to say on my way out Hit me with the, "Hey, been a while" Now I'm going straight through the fire, fire (I don't even know why though) Get me on a wave then you fade out Hit me with the, "Life got me tired" I should get away from you, I know, I know (I don't even know why though) High hopes, I fall for the cycle High low, I'm on, on a spiral Love me, wide open then leave me idle (I don't even know why though) I just want to put my weight on you Switch it, smoke it, I'ma sway on you Know I shouldn't, I'ma wait on you I don't even know why though I just want to put my weight on you Switch it, smoke it, I'ma sway on you Know I shouldn't, I'ma wait on you I don't even know why though I don't even know why though Maybe it's the love that you show me Make my body feel like it's holy (Feel too good to stay, you hurt too much to leave) You're just what I need (I don't even know why though) High hopes, I fall for the cycle High low, I'm on on a spiral Love me, wide open then leave me idle (I don't even know why though) I just want to put my weight on you Switch it, smoke it, I'ma sway on you Know I shouldn't, I'ma wait on you I don't even know why though I just want to put my weight on you Switch it, smoke it, I'ma sway on you Know I shouldn't, I'ma wait on you I don't even know why though I don't even know why though I just want to put my weight on you Switch it, smoke it, I'ma sway on you Know I shouldn't, I'ma wait on you I don't even know why though I just want to put my weight on you Switch it, smoke it, I'ma sway on you Know I shouldn't, I'ma wait on you I don't even know why though I don't even know why though

Something by the way he touched me Was so slow The way he'd put his arms around me Even though I'm feeling lonely I'm feeling lonely Don't understand the words he said Made me do wrong But now there is nothing else in my head And now it's stronger wish he'd drift me Alone I wish he leave me Cuz' I know Trouble will follow When I have to go I have to go He makes me think that I don't know me So unsure When I remember all the things he showed me And I want more I'm feeling lonely Oh, oh, oh, I'm feeling lonely

It's hard to face all the feelings Pretending that I'm not bleeding I'm out of my head, I'm leaving for dead Heart skips, pulse hits the ceiling Cold sweats, the nightmare revealing It's all in my head When it all goes down The darkness comes out The darkness comes out When it all goes down The savage comes out Everyone's a wolf, everyone's a wolf When the wall's at your back You're under attack E-e-everyone, everyone's a wolf I'm tracking the moves that you're making I sense you're not far from breaking In the unknown, I'm not alone Feeding on lies and betrayal This coffin's on its final nail It's all in my head When it all goes down The darkness comes out The darkness comes out When it all goes down The savage comes out Everyone's a wolf, everyone's a wolf When the wall's at your back You're under attack E-e-everyone's a wolf We're biting, we're crawling Never giving up, never giving up, yeah We're killing, surviving When's enough enough? Everyone, everyone's a wolf When it all goes down The savage comes out Everyone's a wolf, everyone's a wolf When the wall's at your back You're under attack E-e-everyone's a wolf We're biting, we're crawling Never giving up, never giving up, yeah We're killing, surviving When's enough enough? Everyone, everyone's a wolf Everyone, everyone's a wolf