Ella Balloons - Luke Davey

I'm not mad, don't be sorry But you kinda fucked me up At my own birthday party But I'm not mad, I'm not upset But you've known me all these years And not my pronouns yet That's on you, that ain't on me Wish I told you what I went through with my family That's nothing new, that's just me And if I'm honest it was nice to chat and eat ice cream It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine I'm not sad, you know I don't cry But I was blowing out the candles With this on my mind What I'd give for one more wish Not to see me as I was But someone different It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine I bought blue balloons and yellow flowers Cleaned the house, it took me hours Bought a shirt that fit me oh so right I put sunscreen on my brand new scars Couldn't wait to show them off In just a word you took away my night But it's alright, I'm not mad It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine It's my party, I'll be fine if I want to Fine if I want to, fine

You and I in a little toy shop Buy a bag of balloons with the money we've got Set them free at the break of dawn 'til one by one, they were gone Back at base, bugs in the software Flash the message, something's out there floating in the summer sky As 99 red balloons go by 99 red balloons floating in the summer sky Panic bells, it's red alert There's something here from somewhere else The war machine, it springs to life Opens up one eager eye focusing it on the sky As 99 red balloons go by 99 decision street 99 ministers meet to worry, worry, super-scurry Call out the troops now in a hurry "This is what we've waited for This is it boys, this is war" The president is on the line As 99 red balloons go by 99 Kriegsminister Streichholz und Benzinkanister Hielten sich für schlaue Leute Witterten schon fette Beute Riefen "Krieg!" und wollten Macht Mann, wer hätte das gedacht Dass es einmal so weit kommt Wegen 99 Luftballons? 99 Luftballons

No I can't look down I'm so fuckin high when you're around I keep on saving my breath But what's the fuckin point if I got nothing left I keep running faster but I can't get away Throwin mixed signals and it's hurtin my brain I keep running faster but I can't get away Throwin mixed signals and it's hurtin my brain And though I wish that you would save me I'm just to afraid that you'd end up hating me As for my heart its fuckin breaking I wore it on my sleeve and now its killing me And I don't want you to hate me Even though I give you every reason to And I know you wanna blame me for all the bad shit that happened to you I keep on waiting for your calls and I don't miss one baby Wait is it weird that I call you that I don't want you to freak out on me again I think we're better off just playin pretend I keep running faster but I can't get away Throwin mixed signals and it's hurtin my brain I keep running faster but I can't get away Throwin mixed signals and it's hurtin my brain And though I wish that you would save me I'm just to afraid that you'd end up hating me As for my heart its fuckin breaking I wore it on my sleeve and now its killing me And I don't want you to hate me Even though I give you every reason to And I know you wanna blame me for all the bad shit that happened to you