Is this how I die? Ridiculed and laughed at Wearing clown shoes Is this how I die Furious and reckless Sick with booze How did I live? I taste every wasted minute Every time I turned away From the things that might have healed me How long have I been sleeping? Is this how I die? Frightened like a child Lazy and numb Is this how I die? Pretending and preposterous And dumb How did I live? Was I kind enough and good enough? Did I love enough? Did I ever look up and see the moon And the stars and the sky? Oh, why have I been sleeping? They say we are asleep until we fall in love We are children of dust and ashes But when we fall in love we wake up And we are a God and angels weep But if I die here tonight I die in my sleep All of my life has been searching the words Of poets, and saints, and prophets, and kings And now at the end all I know that I've learned Is that all that I know Is I don't know a thing So easy to close off Place the blame outside Hiding in my room at night So terrified All the things I could've been But I never had the nerve Life and love I don't deserve So I'll write, alright I've had my time Close my eyes Let the death bells chime Bury me in burgundy I just don't care Nothing's left I've looked everywhere Is this how I die? Was there ever any other way my life could be? Is this how I die? Such a storm of feelings inside of me But then, why am I screaming? Why am I shaking? Oh God, was there something that I missed? Did I squander my divinity? Was happiness within me the whole time? They say we are asleep until we fall in love We are children of dust and ashes But when we fall in love we wake up And we are a God and angels weep But if I die here tonight I die in my sleep They say we are asleep until we fall in love And I'm so ready to wake up now I wanna wake up Don't let me die while I'm like this I wanna wake up God, don't let me die while I'm like this Please let me wake up now God don't let me die while I'm like this I am ready I'm ready To wake up

Smile though your heart is aching Smile even though it's breaking When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by If you smile through your fear and sorrow Smile and maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through For you Light up your face with gladness Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near That's the time you must keep on trying Smile, what's the use of crying You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you just smile When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by If you smile And maybe tomorrow You'll see the sun come shining through For you Light up your face with gladness Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near That's the time you must keep on trying Smile, what's the use of crying You'll find that life is still worthwhile If you just smile

Some days I can't say why I'm feeling lonely And some days I am too proud to ask for help And I stumble through the noise trying to find some peace A stranger in the crowd, I lose myself So I walk down to the river Where the troubles, they can't find me Let the waters there remind me The sun will be there when we wake I walk down to the river Though I might not understand it It's not always as we planned it But we grow stronger when we break So I walk down to the river I walk down to the river This raging world can get so overwhelming Looking for a meaning when it won't make sense In my head, it's getting loud like I can't outrun this cloud No matter where I go, well there I am So I walk down to the river Where the troubles, they can't find me Let the waters there remind me The sun will be there when we wake I walk down to the river Though I might not understand it It's not always as we planned it But we grow stronger when we break So I walk down (walk down) to the river (down) I walk down (walk down) to the river (down) Let the calm pull me under Far beyond the thunder And tell me it will all be okay Let the waves take all my worries Conquer them with fury Give me shelter, be my escape I walk down to the river Where the troubles, they can't find me Let the waters there remind me The sun will be there when we wake I walk down to the river Though I might not understand it It's not always as we planned it But we grow stronger when we break So I walk down (walk down) to the river (down) I walk down (walk down) to the river (down) I walk down to the river (down) I walk down to the river, to the river (down) To the river I walk down, oh, oh, oh, oh To the river, oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh, oh