Double Crossing Blues - Esther Phillips

I crossed the Rubicon on the 14th day Of the most dangerous month of the year At the worst time, at the worst place That's all I seem to hear I got up early So I can greet the goddess of the dawn I've painted my wagon, abandoned all hope And I crossed the Rubicon Well, the Rubicon is a red river Goin' gently as she flows Redder than your ruby lips And the blood that flows from the rose Three miles north of purgatory One step from the great beyond I prayed to the cross, I kissed the girls And I crossed the Rubicon What are these dark days I see? In this world so badly bent I cannot redeem the time The time so idly spent How much longer can it last? How long can it go on? I embrace my love, put down my hair And I crossed the Rubicon I can feel the bones beneath my skin And they're tremblin' with rage I'll make your wife a widow You'll never see old age Show me one good man in sight That the sun shines down upon I pawned my watch, I paid my debts And I crossed the Rubicon Put my hide up on a hill Where some happiness I'll find If I survive, then let me love Let the hour be mine Take the high road, take the low Take any one you're on I poured the cup, I passed it along And I crossed the Rubicon Well, you defiled the most lovely flowers In all her womanhood Others can be tolerant Others can be good I'll cut you up with a crooked knife Lord, and I'll miss you when you're gone I stood between Heaven and Earth And I crossed the Rubicon You won't find any happiness here No happiness or joy Go back to the gutter, try your luck Find you some nice pretty boy Tell me how many men I need And who can I count upon I strapped my belt, I buttoned my coat And I crossed the Rubicon I feel the holy spirit inside See the light that freedom gives I believe it's in the reach of Every man who lives Keep as far away as possible It's darkest 'fore the dawn (Oh Lord) I turned the key, I broke it off And I crossed the Rubicon Mona, baby, are you still in my mind? I truly believe that you are Couldn't be anybody else but you Who's come with me this far The killing frost is on the ground And the autumn leaves are gone I lit the torch, I looked to the east And I crossed the Rubicon

I lay awake at night Toss and turn Oh so troubled It's hard to keep a job Laid off, I'm having double trouble But hey, hey, yeah They say you can make it if you try Yes, some of this generation is millionaires It's hard for me to keep decent clothes to wear Come on! You laughed as I walked away And I had no place to go Bad luck and trouble haven taken me And I've no money to show But hey, hey yeah Hey, hey They say you can make it if you try Lord, we're trying Yeah, some of this generation is millionaires It's hard for me to keep decent clothes to wear Come on!

Tell her you've thought about what happened Tell her you haven't slept at night Tell her although you made a huge mistake You want to make it right Tell her you know you aren't perfect Tell her you've waited way too long Tell her you're sorry, tell her you mean it Tell her you just were wrong Tell her she shouldn't have ignored you Or dissed you in front of all the school Tell her the minute she got out of touch You felt like such a fool Tell her that studying together Was so nice, you prayed it wouldn't end Say you forgive her, say you were jealous Ask if she'll be your friend Evan & Patrice: Tell her that people get things wrong Cause people are afraid they wont fit in your world or in your life But things will work out fine if she will only listen Tell her that all you ever wanted Tell her that all you ever wanted Was maybe Evan & Patrice: A smile or a glance Tell her your sorry Tell her you mean it Evan & Patrice: Ask for another chance Tell her you just want another chance

Take one step And make it count Hold your breath then let it out What's left unsaid, say it loud There's a fire in me That's still burning I'm sending out a searchlight Shine it out until I find you, oh Can you bring me back to life When my heart's in smithereens I wanna feel what it's like To be surrounded by you, oh So I'm sending out a searchlight To bring you back to me I'm lost again in this night The sun just leads me into shadows In my bones, in my blood You cure my disease Like a remedy I'm sending out a searchlight (searchlight) Shine it out until I find you, ohh Can you bring me back to life (to life) When my heart's in smithereens I wanna feel what it's like (it's like) To be surrounded by you, oh So I'm sending out a searchlight To bring you back to me Like a wild river, in a hurricane Like a fallen empire, I will rise again Take one step, and make it count I'm sending out a searchlight (searchlight) Shine it out until I find you, oh Can you bring me back to life (to life) When my heart's in smithereens I wanna feel what it's like (it's like) To be surrounded by you, ohh So I'm sending out a searchlight (searchlight) To bring you back to me

Right now I need an escape From this gravity that holds me down We gotta leave here today 'Cause insanity is all around 'Cause we're works of art We're fallin' stars We're fire waiting for a spark Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna come down No, we're never gonna come down Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna come down It's getting harder to breathe In this atmosphere, from these dizzy heights With you closer to me, we can disappear In this endless night 'Cause we're works of art We're fallin' stars We're fire waiting for a spark Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna come down No, we're never gonna come down Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna touch the ground No, we're never gonna touch the ground If you follow me in this mystery We can swim inside these clouds Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna come down I'm not giving up, giving up We're so high Won't you look at us, look at us? Tonight Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna come down No, we're never gonna come down Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna touch the ground No, we're never gonna touch the ground If you follow me in this mystery We could swim inside these crowds Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna come down If you follow me in this mystery We could swim inside these crowds Yeah, we're gonna be miles up, up, up No, we're never gonna come down, no