Don't Even Know - Ashton On Da Beat

Oh, you waited so long Sometimes it's hard to stand out And you don't have to do anything else Be yourself You, you dressed up so nice But all I could see was your eyes And the crowd came and pulled you away And then you were gone Ooh, yeah And I don't even know your name All I remember is that smile on your face And it'll kill me everyday 'Cause I don't even know your name Oh, everywhere that I go I see your face and it kills me to know That you never know what you did to me And now you're gone Yeah, I can't stop thinkin' bout' you 'Cause I don't even know your name All I remember is that smile on your face And it'll kill me everyday 'Cause I don't even know your name Yeah, I don't even know your name I'm running, I'm searching And I don't know where to start I'm dying, my love You punched a hole right through my heart I won't stop, stop looking 'Till I hold you in my arms 'Cause I'm running, I'm running, I'm running I'm running, I'm searching And I don't know where to start I'm dying, my love You punched a hole right through my heart I won't stop, stop looking 'Till I hold you in my arms 'Cause I'm running, I'm running, I'm running And I don't even know your name All I remember is that smile on your face And it'll kill me everyday 'Cause I don't even know your name

There's nothing in the way I walk that could tell you where I'm going There's nothing in the words I speak that can betray anything I'm knowing Don't think about the way I dress, you can fit me on a labeled shelf Don't pretend that you know me 'cause I don't even know myself Ooh I don't know myself I don't mind if you try once in a while I don't mind if I cry once in a while The doors aren't shut as tight as they might seem I'm just trying to fight my way out of this dream Don't listen to the words I say, weighing up if I'm enlightened Don't shiver as you pass me by, 'cause mister I'm the one who's frightened The police just came and left, they wanted me and no one else Don't pretend that you know me 'cause I don't even know myself I said I don't know myself I don't mind if you try once in a while I don't mind if I cry once in a while The doors aren't shut as tight as they might seem I'm just trying to fight my way out of this dream Do you remember me, I don't remember you Do you still love me, you know I think you do I have been gone, and some prison warder knows my scream I'm just trying to fight my way out of this dream There's only five who know my real name And my mother don't believe they know it What she called me is the way I'm staying And no one'll ever know it Come on all of you big boys, come on all of you elves Don't pretend that you know me 'cause I don't even know myself I said I don't know myself I don't mind if you try once in a while And I don't mind if I cry once in a while

Uh, uh Mmm They don't even know (ye-yeah) I'm dealing with trauma It's become a part of me They don't even know (ye-yeah) I have PTSD A pain that'll never leave They don't even know (ye-yeah) That my heart doesn't beat I'm tryna find a remedy They don't even know (no) That I could hardly sleep (yeah) Because I see you in my dreams Yeah, always see you in my dreams I think I need to wake up I just wish I could move on 'Cause I don't wanna stay stuck The voices in my head's loud They never seem to stay shut Overthink 'til I can't sleep Paranoid, so I stay up Always lost in my thoughts again Showcase my pain to my audience Watch me rise 'til I fall again Hate my mind 'cause it's fraudulent Always swimmin' in doubt I can't ever get out of it Women want me for clout Now I'm raising my walls again Biggest fear's blowing up Before reducin' the trauma 'Cause all of that added stress will only add to the problem I got a lotta money It doesn't fix anything Want someone to love me, 'cause Then that would mean everything Always feeling high And then I'm feeling down again Tryna find the source Don't know what the problem is (ye-yeah) Why am I alone? And, lost the ones I started with They don't even know That I'm getting tired of this They don't even know (ye-yeah) I'm dealing with trauma It's become a part of me They don't even know (ye-yeah) I have PTSD A pain that'll never leave They don't even know (ye-yeah) That my heart doesn't beat I'm tryna find a remedy They don't even know (no) That I could hardly sleep Because I see you in my dreams Yeah, my left arm's filled with tattoos When really those are just scars I got 'em during bad moods Or whenever life was hard Always used a distraction From all the pain in my heart Never found satisfaction From getting paid for my art It's a ridiculous trade-off That only seems to worsen 'Cause money doesn't pay off When you're a broken person It hurts when some people think My music's music itself When really it's my diary I literally cry for help I'm overlooked, I'm disregarded I'm insecure, I'm broken-hearted I feel unsteady, the pressure's heavy I'm getting tired of bein' an artist Need rehabilitation, a reset from all of this I'm at the point of breaking When's the end to all of this? Always feeling high And then I'm feeling down again Tryna find the source Don't know what the problem is (yeah) Why am I alone? And, lost the ones I started with They don't even know That I'm getting tired of this (o-oh) They don't even know (ye-yeah) I'm dealing with trauma It's become a part of me They don't even know (ye-yeah) I have PTSD A pain that'll never leave They don't even know (ye-yeah) That my heart doesn't beat I'm tryna find a remedy They don't even know (no) That I could hardly sleep Because I see you in my dreams