Standing by the blinds Above the city lights A junkie for your touch Dressing up for the night The winter sky is clear Passing faceless silhouettes Counting wasted years Like burnt out cigarettes Where are you now? I have to carry the cross Where are you now? You're the greatest loss Falling like a flake In a snowstorm ball Where every little shake Makes a blizzard of it all Where are you now? I have to carry the cross Where are you now? You're the greatest loss

I'm Peter van der Hold I'm 68 years old I doubt some questions have increased In 42 years of being a priest I'm at the end of my life I'm not sure if I'm gonna survive I often don't know what to say When I talk to Him, when I pray In reply I receive Only silence, no relief I've waited in vain for a little advice From that great voice in the ethereal skies Once I was revolutionary A devoted mercenary A gifted student in God's hands Now I'm old and sick of his demands I tried to be honest and good Did my job the best I could But I always stayed that average man Right in the spot where I'll began During the grief with which I've dealt Spent three decades since I've felt The certainty I so have thought 'bout the existence of the Lord I've seen enough, that's why I know God left this place, long long time ago I'll give him to my perish Things I don't have myself but cherish And namely love and charity Mostly purpose that's what sets you free So I'm where the metaphore I'm not comforting anymore I think I'm almost done with my search Got old so fast even in my church But feels as if I'm kept out Some sort of secret about The meaning of life sometimes Can't fail to notice these are mediocre types I've seen enough, that's why I know God left this place, long long time ago I've seen enough, that's why I know God left this place, long long time ago And time has made me good at one thing And horrible at everything else The blessings of a world divine Were always elsewhere and never mine Oh, I would like to hold someone Briefly maybe have some fun My body's hardly designed So I'm not really the hugging kind Not once has it been Someone with a softer skin Who reached out for me in the middle of the night 'Cause my own lumpy mattress would've turn on the light I think I've been miscast And the time of saints is passed My faith is reclassed but not least After 42 years of being a priest The church is like a woman Thing out of reach like a vision She glimmers in the distance which I could never quite get Now I've left you with my regret I've seen enough, that's why I know God left this place, long long time ago I've seen enough, that's why I know God left this place, long long time ago I've seen enough, that's why I know God left this place, long long time ago I've seen enough, that's why I know God left this place, long long time ago It's my portion, it's my call... It's my portion, it's my call...

You see right through distorted eyes You know you have to learn The execution of your mind You really have to turn The race is run, the book is read The end begins to show The truth is out, the lies are old But you don't want to know Nobody will ever let you know When you ask the reasons why They just tell you that you're on your own Fill your head all full of lies The people who have crippled you You want to see them burn The gates of life have closed on you And there's just no return You're wishing that the Could take your mind away And you don't care if you don't see Again the light of day Nobody will ever let you know When you ask the reasons why They just tell you that you're on your own Fill your head all full of lies You bastards Where can you run to What more can you do No more tomorrow Life is killing you Dreams turn to nightmares Heaven turns to Hell Burnt out confusion Nothing more to tell, yeah Everything around you What's it coming to God knows as your dog knows Bog blast all of you Sabbath, bloody Sabbath Nothing more to do Living just for dying Dying just for you, yeah

What is this that stands before me? Figure in black which points at me Turn 'round quick and start to run Find out I'm the chosen one Oh, no Big black shape with eyes of fire Telling people their desire Satan sitting there he's smiling Watches those flames get higher and higher Oh, no, no, please God help me Let's go fucking crazy Is it the end my friend Satan's coming 'round the bend People running 'cause they're scared The people better go and beware No, no, no God praise you all!

Astral engines in reverse I'm falling through the universe again Down among a dead man's vision Faded dreams and nuclear fission span The strings of theory are holding up the race The puppets falling to the ground The love I feel as I fly endlessly through space Lost in time I wonder, "Will my ship be found?" On this sinking ship I travel Faster than the speed of light Not so supernova burns The black holes turn and fade from sight The strings of fear hide in the human race The answers buried underground The love I feel as I fly endlessly through space Lost in time I wonder, "Will my ship be found?" And very soon The bomber's moon Will show us light And as we crash We'll pray and kiss And say goodnight Goodnight

Say you don't love me, you'll burn You can refuse, but you'll lose, it's by me Say you don't want me, you'll learn Nothing you do will be new 'cause I'm through Oh Call me a liar, you knew You were a fool, but that's cool, it's all right Call me the devil, it's true Some can't accept but I crept inside you So if a stranger calls you Don't let him whisper his name 'Cause it's voodoo Fade into shadow, you'll burn Your fortune is free, I can see it's no good Never look back, never turn It's a question of time till you're mine and you learn So if a stranger sees you Don't look in his eyes 'Cause he's voodoo Say you don't love me, you'll burn You can refuse, but you'll lose, it's by me Say you don't want me, you'll learn Nothing you do will be new 'cause I'm through Voodoo Bring me your children, they'll burn Never look back, never turn Cry me a river, you'll learn Voodoo

Pariah from society Addicted to sobriety A product of a virgin birth, another God on Earth Yes, that's your fantasy You say that you could read my mind Be careful of what you might find You think that you can be like me and see what my eyes see But you're no friend of mine Do you believe every word I say? Make your own truth and get out of my way I'm your pariah For your desire Ain't no messiah Just your pariah An angel or the Antichrist A symbol of your own device Pathetic in your own sad way You're just one pill away from taking my advice Do you believe every word I say? Make up your mind and get out of my way I'm your pariah For your desire Ain't no messiah Just your pariah Do you believe that I'm from Heaven? That I descended from the sky? The graven image of a pseudo icon To worship me on high I'm not your saviour I got no wings to fly Just your pariah Don't look to me when your life is over I'm your pariah For your desire Ain't no messiah Just your pariah Ain't no messiah Just your pariah