December 4th - Money Man

Shawn Carter was born December 4th Weighing in at ten pounds, eight ounces He was the last of my four children The only one who didn't give me any pain, when I gave birth to him And that's how I knew, that he was a special child "Hi baby, what's wrong? You look like, you've lost your best friend Tell me, is it something that I've done again? You look like, you've lost your best friend Tell me". They say they never really miss you 'til you dead or you gone So on that note I'm leavin after this song See you ain't gotta feel no way about Jay so long At least let me tell you why I'm this way, hold on I was conceived by Gloria Carter and Adnus Reeves Who made love under the sycamore tree Which makes me, a more sicker MC and my momma would claim At ten pounds when I was born I didn't give her no pain Although through the years I gave her her fair share I gave her her first real scare, I made up for birth when I got here She knows my purpose was on purpose, I ain't perfect, I care But I feel worthless cause my shirts wasn't matchin my gear Now I'm just scratchin the surface cause what's buried under there Was a kid torn apart once his pop disappeared I went to school, got good grades, could behave when I wanted But I had demons deep inside that would raise when confronted Hold on Shawn was a very shy child growing up He was into sports, and a funny story is At four, he taught himself how to ride a bike A two-wheel at that, isn't that special? But, I noticed a change in him. when me and my husband, broke up Now all the teachers couldn't reach me and my momma couldn't beat me Hard enough to match the pain of my pop not seeing me SO! With that disdain in my membrane Got on my pimp game, fuck the world, my defense came Then the Haven introduced me to the game Spanish Jose introduced me to 'caine; I'm a hustler now My gear is in, and I'm in the in-crowd And all the wavy light-skinned girls is lovin me now My self-esteem went through the roof, man I got my swag' Got a Volvo from this girl when her man got bagged Plus I hit my momma with cash from a show that I had Supposedly - knowin nobody paid Jaz wack ass I'm gettin ahead of myself, by the way, I could rap That came second to me movin this crack Give me a second I swear, I would say about my rap career 'Til ninety-six came, niggaz I'm here - goodbye! Shawn used to be in the kitchen, beating on the table and rapping And umm, into the wee hours of the morning And then I brought him a boombox And his sisters and brothers said that he would drive them nuts But, that was my way to keep him close to me, and out of trouble Goodbye to the game all the spoils, the adrenaline rush Your blood boils, you in a spot, knowin cops could rush At you in the drop, you so easy to touch No two days are alike, except the 1st and 15th pretty much And trust, is a word you seldom hear from us Hustlers, we don't sleep, we rest one eye up And a drought could define a man when the well dries up You learn the worth of water Without work you thirst 'til you die - YUP! And niggaz get tied up for product And little brothers ring fingers get cut up To show mothers they really got 'em And this is the stress I lived with 'Til I decided to try this rap shit for a livin I pray I'm forgiven - for every bad decision I made Every sister I played - cause I'm still paranoid to this day And it's nobody fault, I made the decisions I've made This is the life I chose, or rather the life that chose me If you can't respect that, your whole perspective is whack Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black If you can't respect that, your whole perspective is whack Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black Now if you can't respect that, your whole perspective is whack Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black If you can't respect that, your whole perspective is whack Maybe you'll love me when I fade to black.

Now, the time of the year Is finally here It's the time when I spend All my hours in fear Emptiness just comes and goes Hopefully, it doesn't show Voices calling my name Deep inside of my brain They don't stop 'cause They're trying to drive me insane I don't know why you went away Ooh, the memories will never fade December once again December once again December once again Like the stars in the sky, I can still see in your eyes It's the same old pattern That never dies I can't seem to leave behind This emptiness inside my mind There's a mist in the air And the feeling is bare, Keeps me dreaming of you It just isn't fair I don't know why you went away Ooh, the memories will never fade December once again December once again December once again (Memories will never fade) Why'd you have to go away? (All the times we used to share) Why'd you have to go away? (December feelings once again) Why'd you have to go away? (Memories will never fade) Why'd you have to go away, go away? INSTRUMENTAL INTERLUDE Now, the time of the year Is finally here It's the time when I spend All my hours in fear I don't know why you went away The memories will never fade December once again December once again December once again December once again December once again December once again December once again December once again

All I want to be is a shovely bubbly gobbly gook A seagull stole him from his slow mama's hands Aboard the boat, the Sweet Louisa And dropped him in the meadowlands Where wild hyenas taught him how to hunt old elephants So he spent his formative years eating out badunkadunk Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) He traveled across the sea in the belly of a Japanese businessman On a pleasure ship to France And he don't know why she loves him And he don't know why the sun sets but Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Bang pow pow pow ah And her father hated him with the passion of a dying Chinaman He said, "Get him out of here or I'm going to bite off his face" No daddy daddy, don't daddy daddy "Get the fuck out of my house" No daddy daddy, don't daddy daddy "This is my house, my house" Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman) Fee fi fo fum (I smell the blood of an Englishman)

You wish you were stronger You'd learn to love to be alone You're always running into the arms of disaster You wish you were smarter You'd sink your hopes with a stone You're always running into the arms of desire If I could change it all I would But I can't Heal the hurt that weighs you down But I can't Make some sense out of this world But I can't We used to dream We'd somehow always Land on our feet Despite all the distance No matter the tension Like cats entwined in heat Maybe I waited far too long Maybe I waded far too deep Maybe I waited far too long Waiting for the nights to right the I wish I was crueler I'd slash the throat of my god 'Cause I'm always running into the arms of disaster I wish I was colder I'd shiv myself in the yard 'Cause I'm always running into the arms of desire If I could change it all I would But I can't Heal the hurt that keeps us bound But I can't Make some sense out of this crazy world But I can't We used to dream We'd somehow always Land on our feet Despite all the distance No matter the tension Like cats entwined in heat We used to dream We'd somehow always Land on our feet Maybe I waited far too long Maybe I waded far too deep Maybe I waited far too long Waiting for the night to right the If I could change it all I would

We a bun bad mind, but we hypocrites can stay (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) So we draw our line (Christian dip) And tell Satan scubaay (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) Kiss di cross and touch di sky (Christian dip, revival dip) All bad mind ting must stop, we a bun out bad mind (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) We a bun out bad mind (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) A wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi Rebuke dem (Alright) Rebuke dem (Weh yuh seh) Dem nuh like we and we nuh like dem (Alright) Rebuke dem (Alright) Rebuke dem (Everybody) Dem nuh like we and we nuh like dem Trample dem (Alright) Trample dem (Trample dem) We nuh care if a devil send dem (Weh yuh seh?) Trample dem (Alright) Trample dem We nuh care if a devil send dem Everybody God time (God time) God time Mi waan see everybody hold di God line God time, God time, If yuh a Satan please don't join (Don't join) Praise di Lord (Praise di Lord) Praise di Lord (Praise di lord) Praise di man although time hard (Praise di lord) Praise di Lord, praise di Lord Nuh Devil worship a caan come inna we heart We a bun bad mind, but we hypocrites can stay (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) So we draw our line (Christian dip) And tell Satan scubaay (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) Kiss di cross and touch di sky (Christian dip, revival dip) All bad mind ting must stop, we a bun out bad mind (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) We a bun out bad mind (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) A wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi Any weapon shall rise against we shall fall Brimstone fire weh mi put ova yuh wall Fadda God tell mi fi preach it like Paul Slew Eden like Goliath and Saul (Mi caan believe) Smallas mek mi tree fall (Rain or fall) And ansa God call Mek a joyful night to di Lord And to di Lord mek a joyful noise Heard dat well inna secret place Of di most high shall forever live or dem a die Passion of the Christ dat mek mi start cry (Inna Sean) Weh mi see a Peter denied Judah betray di most high Dats why mi nuh beg fren and frenship mi nuh buy Nuff a dem a miss di well until it run dry Keep it jiggy mi a look to di sky, scubaay We a bun bad mind, but we hypocrites can stay (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) So we draw our line (Christian dip) And tell Satan scubaay (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) Kiss di cross and touch di sky (Christian dip, revival dip) All bad mind ting must stop, we a bun out bad mind (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) We a bun out bad mind (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) A wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi, wedi Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind Yuh too bad mind, we bun bad mind (Alright, alright, Christian dip) Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind Yuh too bad mind, yeah yuh too bad mind (Christian dip, Christian dip, Christian dip, Christian dip) Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind Yuh too bad mind, so we bun bad mind (Shankle dip, shankle dip, shankle dip, shankle dip) Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind (Inna di spirit, inna di spirit, hallelujah) We a bun bad mind, but we hypocrites can stay (Yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind, yuh too bad mind) So we draw our line (Christian dip) And tell Satan scubaay