Dear Carl I Forgot Who I Was Gigi Masin Call Me - Soupy

Started from the bottom, worked my ass off I done seen my life flash, dawg This shit is more than jewelry and fast cars What if me callin' for help was my last call? What if God didn't answer? 'Cause I took shit for granted What if me wantin' a double R, turned me to a phantom? They went from callin' my phone to prayin' God doesn't answer It's crazy how they switched up, I don't understand it None of them trenches done got them When trouble it come up to you You double, and try to dip My momma taught me how to be a man K-Murder taught me not to be a bitch Remember that one day, niggas tried fight But I had the pipe, put that on my gift In front of my mother, I let that shit go Too quick to blow a nigga in his shit Imagine my momma hearing I'm dead Through the most so my mom see me like this Gotta stay on my shit, I ain't focused on niggas, they kids Young and focused on runnin' up hits Suckin' these vids, that's where we live Nothin' like you, that's we do Everything problem, you comin' to me Who would relate? I done did too much for niggas that turned around and spit in my face And some days we was comin' up but this will never ever be the case Fuck it, I'm here I'm tryna fuck up some commas, no Pluto, feel like I'm in space Give a fuck about nobody givin' me kudos, I rather erase Started from the bottom, worked my ass off I done seen my life flash, dawg This shit is more than jewelry and fast cars What if me callin' for help was my last call? What if God didn't answer? 'Cause I took shit for granted What if me wantin' a double R, turned me to a phantom? They went from callin' my phone to prayin' God doesn't answer It's crazy how they switched up, I don't understand it I don't want shit but some money I ain't chasin' no bitches, they ain't on shit I know niggas hurtin', prayin' I'ma fail But I'ma keep workin', make them niggas sick Ain't no one helped me Role models lookin' at me like I don't exist Still livin' healthy Ain't never needed nobody, just my gift Look at my wrist Thuggin', I did a lot of grindin' for the goals Had a circle was chill They was thinkin' I was cold, suck my dick Chilling 'round unloal bros, didn't know 'til I slipped Get one life, won't think twice 'fore I got I'm blick All I know, funny cards was dealt to me But I know, that I wasn't meant to be All I know, that's for sure, time to go Started from the bottom, worked my ass off I done seen my life flash, dawg This shit is more than jewelry and fast cars What if me callin' for help was my last call? What if God didn't answer? 'Cause I took shit for granted What if me wantin' a double R, turned me to a phantom? They went from callin' my phone to prayin' God doesn't answer It's crazy how they switched up, I don't understand it

I was down in music city 'bout a week ago I wanted to see the Grand Ole Opry show, So I hailed a cab and I headed down to Opryland They said they sold their last ticket the day before, So I kinda just hung around the backstage door And down the steps she came, man oh man My favorite female country star, She waved to her fans and headed for her car Her tire, unlike her body, was very flat She said, could you change my tire I said your wish is my desire As she raised the lid, I grabbed her bumper jack She said I sure do appreciate ya changing my tire If I told you who it was, if I told you who it was You'd say I was making it up You've seen her on the screen and in country magazines You'd think I was making it up She said it was our little secret and by golly, I'm gonna keep it Anyway you wouldn't believe it if I told you who it was She said you need a lift and I said well, You can drop me of at the York motel, So we headed down Briley Parkway into town I told her I got all your records ma'am, She smiled and said well I be damned Say, you're kind of cute fella, wanna mess around? When we got to my room just to be polite I said sure wish I could've heard you sing tonight She smiled at me and said whatcha wanna hear? Now if I was one of them country music folks I tell you, She'd sure get my vote for the best performance of the year If I told you who it was, if I told you who it was You'd say I was making it up You've seen her on the screen and in country magazines You'd think I was making it up She said it was our little secret and by golly, I'm gonna keep it Anyway you wouldn't believe it if I told you who it was Well I tell you this much, When I put my arms around her and squeezed her real tight She looked up at me with those big beautiful eyes, Took a deep breath, and then sighed, and said Howdy I'm just so proud to be here If I told you who it was, if I told you who it was You'd say I was making it up You've seen her on the screen and in country magazines You'd think I was making it up She said it was our little secret and by golly, I'm gonna keep it Anyway you wouldn't believe it if I told you who it was

Still in the blue, say that I miss you, silence Sit on my phone, try to refrain from dialin' See, when we're good Then we're good, when we're bad, we're a disaster Make out, slam the door, and then text you right after I don't miss the drama, but God, I miss your laughter, woah So who do I call now? I'd give it all now Just to be fightin' in the kitchen Hearin' the crash of broken dishes Thought it was bad then This heartache is hellbent I'd fall asleep to the television Drown out the sound of your voice missin' Now I'd do anything for you to yell at me You left so quietly But your silence is deafening Hung by a thread, sometimes I wish you'd cut it Hit me so low, then act like you're so above it See, when we're high, we're so high, then we crash and we shatter And make out like we're fine and fall back in old patterns I don't miss the drama, but God, I miss your laughter, whoa So who do I call now? I'd give it all now Just to be fightin' in the kitchen Hearin' the crash of broken dishes Thought it was bad then This heartache is hellbent I'd fall asleep to the television Drown out the sound of your voice missin' Now I'd do anything for you to yell at me You left so quietly But your silence is deafening I always come back like a sickness Built the antibodies, get you my system The audacity to call yourself the victim Kick me down, say it's not malicious You use it all against me when I tell you things Or even worse, you're not listening I used to go to you for everything So who do I Who do I call now? I'd give it all now Just to be fightin' in the kitchen Hearin' the crash of broken dishes Thought it was bad then (thought it was bad) This heartache is hellbent (hellbent) I'd fall asleep to the television Drown out the sound of your voice missin' Now I'd do anything for you to yell at me You left so quietly But your silence is deafening

It's just another day It's just another year "One step at a time", they say "One trip, and you're back that way" I don't recognize these eyes I don't recognize these hands Please believe me when I tell you That this is not who I am If I recover, will you take me back again? I'm just another, trying hard to fit right in But my photographs remind me of who I used to be If only I could go back when I was me I'll try hard to make this ride I'll try hard to win this fight "One step at a time", they say "One trip, and you're back that way" I don't recognize these eyes I don't recognize these hands Please believe me when I tell you That this is not who I am If I recover, will you take me back again? I'm just another, trying hard to fit right in But my photographs remind me of who I used to be If only I could go back when I was me Give me strength to fight Help me feel alive again Make me whole inside Instead, this hole inside is killing me Oh, I'm begging you If I recover, will you take me back again? I'm just another, trying hard to fit right in But my photographs remind me of who I used to be If only I could go back when I was me