Yeah, I don't wanna talk, stop reaching out
Didn't need you then, don't need you now
This fuckin' world's tryin' to beat me down
I spill my heart 'til I'm bleeding out
I write my truth, never leave it out
I overthink when I think about those who did me wrong
So I write a song 'cause you motherfuckers gotta see me now, I'm
Tired of this, I'm just tryin' to get inspired again
All of my demons keep pilin' in
Until I can't breathe
They make me believe that I'm hurt 'til I'm spiraling
I hate the mood that I am in
Conceal all my pain, I'm hiding it
This feeling won't fade, I'm tired of it
Yo, why is it that all my feelings always have me stuck on the deep end?
I cannot sit around and pretend, like I'm alright when I'm in pieces
Seeing all the people I believed in switch up, so they force me to leave them
Now my trust issues keep increasing
While I'm trying to battle my demons, I
Wanna quit, but that just isn't me
I put a decade in this, I've mastered my self-belief
But one thing that I can't fix, are the burdens my life brings
They suffocate me and it's dragging my soul underneath
Wish I could breathe (mm, yeah)
People aren't who they pretend to be
So I keep my distance, 'cause I see through them eventually
Fake people calling people fake, that sums up the whole industry
I see them as enemies, I got real ones who stick with me, but
I'm trapped in my thoughts
I have felt so lost
Why can't I get out?
'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh
'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh
I just
Wakin' up, feeling empty and stuck
It's depressing, it sucks
I'm not tryin' to give up
But I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah)
Yeah, I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah), yeah
Going to bed, with these thoughts in my head
Make me feel like I'm less, like I'm better off dead
'Cause I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah)
I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah)
Yeah, I'm surprised that I don't drink
Maybe that'll numb my pain at night when I can't sleep
These thoughts scatter my brain, and make me start to think
About times that I wasted, chasing people I grieve
I need a reset, hate feeling depressed
Deflect, every single issue and regret
Reject, any help you offer, I'll eject
And isolate myself 'cause either way I swear these next
Chapters in my life (my life), I won't let nobody in (yo, yo)
But I know I'ma fuck that up 'cause isn't it obvious?
I always break myself promises, the problem is
I'll commit to everybody else before Jonathon, damn
My demons keep me cornered
They taunt me 'til I'm tortured
Happy, sad, in that order
I may have a disorder
Carry weight on my shoulders
My heart is growing colder
My dad is never sober
That's why I don't go over, I (yeah)
Sound over the top, in ever record I drop
Live my life, we can swap
Some say that I'm blessed, when really I'm not
I got everything but can't enjoy anything I got, 'cause
I'm trapped in my thoughts
I have felt so lost
Why can't I get out? (I can't get out)
'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh
'Cause I just cannot escape, oh-oh
I just
Wakin' up, feeling empty and stuck
It's depressing, it sucks
I'm not tryin' to give up
But I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah)
Yeah, I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah), yeah
Going to bed, with these thoughts in my head (my head)
Make me feel like I'm less (I'm less), like I'm better off dead (I'm dead)
'Cause I cannot escape this (yeah, yeah)
Yeah, I cannot escape this (I can't escape this, yeah, yeah)
I can't escape the pain inside my heart
No, I can't escape, no, I can't escape
