By Myself - Kacey Greathouse

I never been much of a Christmas caroler Changing that FM station on the regular Bout that time of year I get to drinkin too much beer Everybody goes home, celebrates with their family And I'm alone stoned at home where I wanna be Singin happy holidays To an empty guitar case Christmas by myself It ain't ideal, but hey oh well I'll just go on, light up another Call my mama, tell her that I love her Nah it ain't that I ain't got friends Guess I like it like it is Making the most of this ho ho holiday hell Christmas by myself Never been one for keepin much company Talkin to the tree cuz it don't talk back to me Looks good from the couch Two foot tall n all decked out Christmas by myself It ain't ideal, but hey oh well I'll just go on, light up another Call my mama, tell her that I love her Nah it ain't that I ain't got friends Guess I like it like it is Making the most of this ho ho holiday hell Christmas by myself By myself, all alone Lock the door, turn off that phone Christmas by myself It ain't ideal, but hey oh well I'll just go on, light up another Call my mama, tell her that I love her Nah it ain't that I ain't got friends Guess I like it like it is Making the most of this ho ho holiday hell Christmas by myself Just making the most of this ho ho holiday hell Christmas by myself Merry Christmas

Walking by myself I hope you'll understand I just want to be your lovin' man I love you, yes I love you With all my heart and soul I wouldn't mistreat you For my weight in gold You know that I love you You know it's true I give you all my loving What more can I do Walking by myself I hope you'll understand I just want to be your lovin' man You know that I love you You know it's true I give you all of my loving What more can I do I'm walking by myself I hope you'll understand I just want to be your lovin' man

Living at the bottom in the middle of nowhere Finding ways to cope is becoming a nightmare I want to find myself on a mountaintop Instead I'm sucking on thin air Feeling like I'm running out of time to spare Out of time to spare I can stay right where I'm at or make a change Start running the other way I've walked through my share of storms unscathed But I always stay the same I guess I know my place Never made it out of my comfort zone Telling myself this is home sweet home And I want to be the one to call it quits If I'm going to end up alone Maybe that's toxic but at least I know I know I can stay right where I'm at or make a change Start running the other way I've walked through my share of storms unscathed But I always stay the same I guess I know my place I guess I know my place I can stay right where I'm at or make a change Start running the other way I've walked through my share of storms unscathed But I always stay the same I guess I know my place I guess I know my place

Poor judgment has always haunted me Sweet whispers influencing me Our past shows where we end up It's only love for one of us Take me down Take me down This chaos forcing air from my chest Just coping; no time to address These feelings that keep me weighed down Avoiding all steady ground Take me down Take me down Take me down (As you go like every time before) Take me down (As you go) I don't dare ask for your plans You tell me you do what you can And I stay here and rebuild our place For the next time you come to escape Take me down (As you go like every time before) Take me down (As you go like every time before) Take me down (As you go like every time before) Take me down Take me down You know you take me down

I'm not ever gonna be everything you're asking me to be I won't fit inside your box and there's something about the way you talk to me You think you shrink me down to size You expect me to compromise Are you really even happy? Everybody tells you how to be I prefer to live my life free You can't tell me anything, anything at all I'm not scared to be alone but I can't stand the thought of getting old With nothing left to leave behind cause I chose to stand behind a lie You think I don't see what you do You think I'm never on to you Are you really even happy? Everybody tells you how to be I prefer to live my life free You can't tell me anything, anything at all Are you really even happy? Everybody tells you how to be I prefer to live my life free You can't tell me anything Are you really even happy? Everybody tells you how to be I prefer to live my life free You can't tell me anything, anything at all

Dive down deep in the bottle Gotta get to the bottom We both know that you ain't coming up for air Who beats the drum that you follow? It's a hard pill to swallow But we both know that I ain't going anywhere Light a match, I'll find the spark Connected by our jaded hearts Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Feels like we're losing, losing I take my shot at your ego Always go for the low blows But I know in the end that you'll be standing there Cause you're always in trouble Face down in the gravel But I know in the end that I can't help but care I want to go where you can't see me But my biggest fear is that you'll leave me Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Feels like we're losing, losing Oh we're on again and off again And truly I don't know I give in even when I should let you go Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Watch the flames go up in waves Oh, baby, how we burn We're a cause no one can save It'll only get 'em hurt Cause we're on again and off again And no one ever knows what we're doing With all these loose ends Feels like we're losing, losing