Burning Polaris - VEXEN

Heavy hangs the air Heavy lies the beating heart Bloodshot, staring with a blank gaze Deadbeat, carrying a dead weight Dead-set on living like tomorrow was to blame And through these holes you'd see the blackest soul inside of me One foot stuck in the past, one planted in my grave Running circles, old habits die hard Each lesson learned never seemed to get too far Call me reckless, call me stuck in my ways I'm torn between the remedies for everything Bloodshot, staring with a blank gaze Deadbeat, carrying a dead weight Dry mouth, taste it like a cut vein Blackout, it all ends the same So stay away, stay away Can you tell when I lie right through my teeth? No escape, no escape Like a chain, in a way we are all bound to our fate Don't let it bury me, me We call this therapy Running circles, old habits die hard Each lesson learned never seemed to get too far Call me reckless, call me stuck in my ways I'm torn between the remedies for everything Heavy hangs the air Heavy lies the beating heart Burden breeds remorse Black clouds hover low like a curse Like a curse Running circles, old habits die hard (running circles) Each lesson learned never seemed to get too far (never seemed to get too far) Call me reckless, call me stuck in my ways (call me reckless) I'm torn between the remedies for everything (the remedies for everything) I'm torn between the remedies for everything I'm torn between the remedies for everything

This is a place I know too well Been down here a while, if you can't tell And I have analysed and tried my best to justify The sorrow I have brought upon myself Am I addicted to the misery, is this how I'll always be? Grinding the salt into every wound? Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment? You can't trust me to be there for you I thought I had this, I thought I had this all figured out You'd think I'd learned from all the shit I fucking screamed about When there was sun I couldn't see for the clouds Still climbing the walls of this well just to dive back down Until I reached my rock bottom Down to the marrow, bringing up the bad blood I'd forgotten Is it me that's making me sick? Been burning both ends of the wick Am I addicted to the misery, is this how I'll always be? Grinding the salt into every wound? Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment? You can't trust me to be there for you I've got this cold black silhouette hanging like a marionette Casting a shadow, a shade over me Just a sick, sad, sorry mess, living like a masochist Your worst impressions were right about me (Your worst impressions were right about me) (Your worst impressions were right) I could ask you to stay, if you're feeling forgiving I could live with the guilt, if you call this living I could try to memorize each grain of sand As it slips through my fingers, and falls from my hands It took me longer than I'd care to admit This life is only what I choose to make of it And the only thing standing in-between happiness and myself Was this depression I held so close to my chest Am I addicted to the misery, is this how I'll always be? Grinding the salt into every wound? Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment? You can't trust me to be there for you I've got this cold black silhouette hanging like a marionette Casting a shadow, a shade over me Just a sick, sad, sorry mess, living like a masochist Your worst impressions were right about me Wasting a waning youth Waiting for something to help me pull through I never saw the sun through the clouds I lost faith when the skies were falling down

あの日「守る」と決めた 約束はこの胸に 全てを失うことで 今救える命があるのなら 喜んで全部をあげよう この気持ちが初めての生きがいだ 傷跡はかくさないで 絶望も武器にして 生きると決めたんだよ 精一杯この涙かきわけて 君に全てをあげるから お願いどうか消えないでくれ あの日「守る」と決めた 約束はこの胸に 誰かの懸けた命に 今生かされながら戦っている 負けることはもう怖くない 勝ちを諦めるのが嫌なんだ もう絶対逃げたりはしないから なりたい自分で挑みたいだけ しょうもない綺麗事だとしても 君が笑ってくれりゃいいんだ "強さ"は何かの上に立つため 在るんじゃない 大切なものを抱きしめる そのために 何もかもを失くしても きっと君を忘れない 精一杯この涙かきわけて 君に全てをあげるから お願い どうか消えないでくれ あの日「守る」と決めた 約束はこの胸に 消えそうな希望だとしても行け