Bitter Fruit - Cash Bilz

Cut your branches at the root That long have grown that bitter fruit Cut your branches at the root That only gave me bitter fruit I was conceived in a red cage, from a wild love I am the seed of a dead age, gone viral Those feelings I've tried to shake, all my life long But the demons I'm keeping are hard to face When you hide them, so long I gotta cut you at the root I gotta save my soul from the bad in you I gotta cut you through and through You only ever gave me bitter fruit Oh and it grew like a shockwave And I was blindsided, oh oh The fruit that your love gave Poisoned my mind up, oh oh I cut your branches at the root I gotta save my soul from the things you do I cut your branches through and through But still I only taste that bitter fruit Down to the bone All my love was cut in a single blow Gone, and I know All my love was cut in the seed I sowed I could pray, but can't you see The kind of things I pray for are cursing me I could pray, but can't you see The kind of things I pray for The kind of things I need I cut your branches at the root That only ever gave me bitter fruit I cut your branches through and through But still I only taste that bitter fruit I could pray, but can't you see The kind of things I pray for are cursing me I could pray, but can't you see The kind of things I pray for The kind of things I need Cut your branches at the root That long have grown that bitter fruit Cut your branches at the root That only gave me bitter fruit Cut your branches at the root That long have grown that bitter fruit Cut your branches at the root That only gave me bitter fruit

After sundown, before sleeping I am the worst of me, I am a mess of these Old themes and the murmur of half-dreams Whisper seductively and stage scenes It's fear fiction, these visions Caught somewhere between delusion and prophesy What I haven't done, what I've wanted to And what I fear you have becomes reality here Bright lights in the young night keep to the beat A classic party scene, crowded and interesting No love, no life, no history Just touch, just chemistry, just A roaring undercurrent simple and sensory Young bodies, warm skin, perfect symmetry and It's a moment, harmless, it's energy It's like medicine, it's self-discovery See, all the secrets I keep, why are they secrets? It's only temporary, that fleeting feeling of warmth Just a flash before the line gets blurry Between a longing for more than what the body wants now And what the body wants now more than anything? Was it integrity that kept my hands to myself Or just the thought of getting too far ahead of you? Was it that I got too tired of the consequence? Or was I just scared? I only know I never wanted to get left behind No pauses, not a second guess First a swaying then a stumble then a swagger They're just movements towards feeling It doesn't matter, neither hesitates to carry on a kind of energy Sweat and block out everything to Find every aperture and compel the animal parts Fan flames, taste fruit, taste bitter fruit Just trying to learn how all the wires in the body work Just trying to feel it out, it's like medicine Find the healing in whatever bed they end up in I want to feel it out, I want to know how it works I want to know if it was worth it to worry About the ghosts I feared would haunt the memory About the damage that I'm sure the fear has done to me now I want to know what it is in me that won't follow through Those nights the instinct takes a hold of me and pushes too Maybe it's only that I've never gotten over you Or am I still scared? I see the church steps, a vision Is there fiction in this one too? It's true, I've made a tale of it here Still, it's a little unclear who's been haunting who And time can be such a funny thing, always moving to the future Glorifying the past and amplifying the pain in frames and glass So was our touch half as sacred as I've made it seem Or just another fabrication of a half-dream? Just those chemicals, the adolescent love Just us trying to grasp onto meaning, onto a purpose Onto a sense that something spiritual releases when the feeling hits And when the feeling hits And in that moment sparks and harps play out A sweeping melody through fog and fantasy And in that moment there's an honesty instinctive and pure But it departs like it came, rapid and bearing no more Than fleeting ecstasy of natural harmony They fear the notes being played and try to sing along Don't be ashamed, be free to the feeling Don't be ashamed, keep feeling But find it: a body that makes sense I've felt it

It's like, being on the outside of an inside joke It's like, when they only got Pepsi and you really want Coke It's like, finally get a text back and it's just your mom It's like, when you just broke up and they play your song I know I said it's kinda stupid But it's just the way I'm feeling right now And I hate that I can tell that someone's probably in my shoes By now, right now I know she thinkin' now she found herself a winner I know you fucked her on the counter Right before you cooked her dinner, yeah I know you think about me when you kiss her I left a taste in your mouth, can she taste me now? That you threw out all our furniture and pictures I bet you sugarcoat the truth, I bet you're real sweet with her, yeah I know you think about me when you kiss her I left a taste in your mouth, can she taste me now? I'm bitter I'm bitter, I'm bitter, I'm bitter, I'm bitter Hearing 'bout your new life and a brand new you It's like, heard you got a new job but I heard you moved It's like, I don't wanna hear it, don't wanna hear 'bout you It's like I don't give a fuck Yeah, I do I know I said it's kinda stupid But it's just the way I'm feeling right now And I hate that I can tell that someone's probably in my shoes By now, right now I know she thinkin' now she found herself a winner I know you fucked her on the counter Right before you cooked her dinner, yeah I know you think about me when you kiss her I left a taste in your mouth, can she taste me now? That you threw out all our furniture and pictures I bet you sugarcoat the truth, I bet you're real sweet with her, yeah I know you think about me when you kiss her I left a taste in your mouth, can she taste me now? I'm bitter I'm bitter, I'm bitter, I'm bitter, I'm bitter You're still in my head but You're not in my bed now You're not in my bed now You're still in my head but You're not in my bed now You're not in my bed now (oh, oh) I know she thinkin' now she found herself a winner I know you fucked her on the counter Right before you cooked her dinner, yeah I know you think about me when you kiss her I left a taste in your mouth, can she taste me now? That you threw out all our furniture and pictures I bet you sugarcoat the truth, I bet you're real sweet with her, yeah I know you think about me when you kiss her I left a taste in your mouth, can she taste me now? I'm bitter I'm bitter, I'm bitter, I'm bitter, I'm bitter Oh, you know I'm bitter (I'm bitter, I'm bitter, I'm bitter)