If I were God, I'd blind the youth The gnawing weight of final night To all the pain that hides in truth Unwilling, I have been fed to life Bellowing for just a crumb Static in the constant hum To drink from life's flowing stream Poisoned Upon loss Upon loss, we're reminded of hell Existence of pain and free will Denial A cancer that eats at the shell Lost forever Loss Upon loss lives denial Upon loss, how can I move on now? Are you washed in, in the blood? (Are you washed in the blood?) It sinks in its teeth It comes for us all (I can't see the roots of his shadow) Are you washed in, in the blood? It comes for me in the dead of night In the dead of night I was visited by death again Upon loss Everything is quiet now!

You probably think that you are better now, better now You only say that 'cause I'm not around, not around You know I never meant to let you down, let you down Woulda gave you anything, woulda gave you everything, oh I did not believe that it would end, no Everything came second to the Benzo You're not even speaking to my friends, no You knew all my uncles and my aunts though 20 candles, blow 'em out and open your eyes We were looking forward to the rest of our lives Used to keep my picture posted by your bedside And now, it's in your dresser with the socks you don't like And I'm rollin', rollin', rollin', rollin' With my brothers like it's Jonas, Jonas Drinkin' Henny and I'm tryna forget But I can't get this shit outta my head You probably think that you are better now, better now You only say that 'cause I'm not around, not around You know I never meant to let you down, let you down Woulda gave you anything, woulda gave you everything (woah) Better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, uh yeah Better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, yeah I'm b-b-b-b better now, better now, uh yeah

Where did your fate go? Was I just to fall on my own? If this room was full of lies Is that how you fooled me with love? I see how you changed me, I know what you said It don't make me hate you, I wish that it did I'm, I'm trying to find words, trying to make sense If I don't try, where do I find the lies between the lines? Why does it hurt so much? Won't understand, no, I can't let this go Oh, you made plans now, you can't shut me down Ah, you're advanced, but you can't tell them now No, you can't tell them how You face the pain while your days are numbered You took the highway, you've done it always You hurt this woman, you put your needs first And I've heard this many times in my head, but it still remains That you had all of this Oh-oh, you still search for bad Oh, you fought all of this You don't even know how bad it got So much for you're my one and only You'd say that you were all mine You knew that your words were hard to stand by I was scared of change, but then I complied even though it hurt I stayed and now I'm glad you have it all But there's things that you can't buy Glad that you said sorry, but habits they die hard Why, you want to offer me love that you don't have? Loving you exhausted me, baby, and you charged, you charged I'll take the high road, I've done it always Our time is old, there's only one way You hurt this woman, you put your needs first It's played out many times in my head, but it still remains That you had all of this Oh-oh, you still search for bad Oh, you fought all of this You don't even know how bad it goes So much for you're my one and only (You had all of this) (Oh, you still search for bad) So much for you're my one and only (You fought all of this) (You don't even know how bad it got) So much for you're my one and only I'll wait, I'll wait for faster Only I quit I'll wait, I'll wait for faster I'm all for that I'll wait, I'll wait for faster Only I quit I'll wait, I'll wait for faster I'm all for that