Backstabbed (feat. Mikayla Hamilton) - Willie Sees Green

I just wanna run away Find somewhere that feels safe Find somewhere the bad days Don't come as often in this sad phase Somewhere I can be alone Where I don't have to run away from my flaws And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts With this high, this high that I've been chasing Doesn't have an exit I don't learn my lesson I don't see no endin' in sight I don't feel the best when I try Holdin' my head up high, but it's not workin' Makin' you cry makes me feel like a bad person (bad person) And something's got a hold on me They don't see the world I see Heartbeat in my chest feels weak It's really starting to weigh on me, yeah I just wanna run away And find somewhere that feels safe Find somewhere the bad days Don't come as often in this sad phase Somewhere I can be alone Where I don't have to run away from my flaws And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts With this high, this high that I've been chasing Always likes a sad trip And ruin all my friendships Way too many questions in my mind I don't have the answers but I try Holdin' my head up high, but it's not workin', yeah Makin' you sad makes me feel like a bad person (bad person, person) I said some awful things last week Messin' with my self-esteem Mixed up my priorities It's really startin' to weigh on me, yeah I just wanna run away Find somewhere that feels safe Find somewhere the bad days Don't come as often in this sad phase Somewhere I can be alone Where I don't have to run away from my flaws And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts With this high, this high that I've been chasing

I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end I wanted to hear your voice but not able to call you Your number is a refuge to us feeling safe when we're talking Refusing you're gone and you're not coming back is a problem This feeling of emptiness grows every day and it's awful I tap into every emotion and tackle this hole in my heart To repair it unable to bear what I'm sharing This has been weighing me down and I'm left in the dark feeling helpless Involved in a million issues I try but I can't seem to solve them Blaming myself for these things that I know I can't change And I'm hating myself to the point that I'm losing all faith What's better when better is not gonna stay? What's hopeful when I'm feeling less of myself every day And why does the thought of my happiness Make me uncomfortable so out of place? Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end Can't cry cause so I'm so mad Hold on but with both hands So frantic I'm in a state of prolapsing so sad While the world around me is falling apart put it all back This is all I have I've been bashed cause I have a passion I can't trash On our last call, you said you're so proud of me God knows that I'll never fold over, whatever happens, I'll capture it Can't keep asking the purpose I serve Cause my mind pulls a fast one when I'm doubting it How can I feel stable when I'm stumbling not balanced You told me I'm on a path that I never walked That we have a gift and to live it strong Cause sometimes life just sneaks up with a dark side Taking your heart, mind at the worst time And when night comes thoughts rise to an all-time low Looking up searching for answers that I might not find? I'll find my way, but until that day I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end I wanna go, a place you don't know Away from this world, a place for the broke, where I'm not on my own Disconnected, from reality I'll find my way, but until that day I'll gaze at the stars As my mind wanders off My searching soul feeling lost All alone in the dust Feel so small as I stand Here alone with no friend Holding on by a thread But this can't be the end This can't be the end This can't be the end Can't be the

No I don't want another birthday When all these fake people call and they say "I'm so glad that you're here, we all love you my dear" But the world wouldn't change if I'd just disappear No I don't want another birthday When I blow out all the candles and they say "Make a wish, make it bright, our little star in the night" Cause again this time I still feel empty inside So let's get on with it I'm overthinking again Sing away the same old tune Nobody wants to do And it'll all be over soon, over soon So, come on get on with it I'm a thousand miles away As my soul begins to break I smile for the show but nobody knows I feel the most alone, in this room of people No I don't want another birthday When everyone blows up my phone and they all say "Hope your day's full of cheer and you don't shed a tear" But not once did you call me in the last year No I don't want another birthday Stop saying to "smile more, be happy" you don't say? Like I haven't tried that are you even hearing yourself? Maybe you should get help I'm sick of explaining myself So let's get on with it I'm overthinking again Sing away the same old tune Nobody wants to do And it'll all be over soon, over soon So, come on get on with it I'm a thousand miles away As my soul begins to break I smile for the show but nobody knows I feel the most alone, in this room of people I'm tired of saying I'm okay And I'm tired of hating myself everyday Like man, it's getting so old When will I find control Of this girl I don't know She's unrecognisable

Willie Green Everything hurts I done tried it all don't anything work I think I'm convinced there ain't anything worse than being me I just need a pick up Problems by the ton I can list of Funny how the drugs never did much At least not for me Everything hurts Everything hurts Maybe I'm a head case I had dreams that make me want to sleep forever Forever Can't get out of my bed, wait Just one more day turns into forever Forever Everything hurts I done tried it all don't anything work I think I'm convinced there ain't anything worse than being me I just need a pick up Problems by the ton i can list of Funny how the drugs never did much At least not for me Everything hurts Friends turning on me that's the real world Never saw that coming that's the real world Had your back when you needed you a real friend When you didn't have the money Willie pitched in Funny how these other mother fuckers mixed in Came time to make a move ain't have a cent then We was limping in the game ain't get a call then And I'm the only person acting like we're all in I can't do this, you're too social I don't like you or I don't know you You don't say shit, how's that okay? I can't live like this I'm too vocal Everything hurts I done tried it all don't anything work I think I'm convinced there ain't anything worse than being me I just need a pick up Problems by the ton I can list of Funny how the drugs never did much At least not for me

Better times, I see good news in between the lines I don't wanna look through everybody's eyes, just mine Rose tinted lenses Momma told me that im sensless Or maybe just a little too sensitive For the world y'all wanna know Cause I was tryna see past, every other side show Every other relapse, only thing that I know Is you could never bring back Battles that you lost, but you could've one Scared of the real world, better leave real fast It'll be okay, if your willing to believe that I'd hate to see ya on the sidelines Checked out looking real... mad Got to find good news, in better times I see good news in between the lines I don't wanna look through everybody's eyes, just mine Rose tinted lenses Momma told me that im sensless Or maybe just a little too sensitive For the world y'all wanna know Take a second You never had a chance to live forever But your here now, but your here now And if all I gots today Id be a fool not to even try Just lay down and die Like fuck it

Double cups and cocaine cut With god knows what Bring me down I take my drugs They keep me up There's a lot of money goin down Money goin down But we're goin up Look at all the money coming down Money coming down But we're goin up Double cups and cocaine cut With god knows what Bring me down I take my drugs They keep me up There's a lot of money goin down Money goin down But we're goin up Look at all the money coming down Money coming down But we're goin up I've been taking risks I've been going in Doing all the shit I did When I was 17 With a pocket full of dreams And a pretty young bitch I thought you were the shit How'd you go and break my heart like that And act like you never did I blew a whole lot of funds getting over that I did a whole lot of drugs getting over that I had a whole lotta fun getting over that I had a whole lotta fun getting over that Now my mindstate woosah Told the gps take it too far Cause I just wanna be right where you are But you got me out here chilin with a new girl And all my new girls love to sip Double cups and cocaine cut With god knows what Bring me down I take my drugs They keep me up There's a lot of money goin down Money goin sdown But we're goin up Look at all the money coming down Money coming down But we're goin up Double cups and cocaine cut With god knows what Bring me down I take my drugs They keep me up There's a lot of money goin down Money goin down But we're goin up Look at all the money coming down Money coming down But we're goin up

This the type of flow to get me producing again This the type of flow to assure you I'm dialed in Like I need the validation From you? Sit the fuck down stay on lie witnesses demonstration Representation, that's how you really bounce back This is recreation, this isn't really about rap I won't be hear for long By the time you recognize what's happening I'll be gone This is the song that you long for I won't be missed until I'm out of touch I won't be needed 'til you see that it was never you but always us Reversed a seat at the table for when you wising up Exhausted your effort, your luck is drying up But that's a blessing in disguise The track record justitifes the drive I was switching majors while beat supplyed in my drive Pouring cups in a bread mask toasted up high Getting lit, getting ripped in the club I flipped loss to a dub took a shot Kobe shoulder shrug, shoot again Victory lap out to intrude again What you lost with me is what you think you found when you with him Left another trail only for you to lose again Stories getting spun like moves I have to tune em out Been rejecting everything that you can't live without Plot twist, when you were convinced you had it figured out This the type of flow to get Jewels singing again This the type of flow to confirm that I'm dropping in Like I need the validation From you? Sit the fuck down stay on lie witnesses demonstration Representation, that's how you really bounce back This is recreation, this isn't really about rap I won't be hear for long By the time you recognize what's happening I'll be gone Who'd you become Wish you could look at me now Today I did what I wanted My younger self would be proud I designed my own clothes I stick out in the crowd Quiet, clear and respectful I don't gotta be loud I drew pictures of things that I wanted And then I went and got it Picked up your chain when you pawned it I'm sorry to see it happen How can I learn from these losses Cause someone's gotta lose Cause energy is not destroyed, it's transferred to me from you I took classes I hardly remember moments of But I know lyrics to songs that I probably heard like once Who'd you become? I love the same things I loved when I was growing up Still feel like a kid, I ain't grow up none Still miss all my friends, I can't call 'em up Every step I took forward, I felt 'em slowing up Funny how when you're at the top, you're the only one

Stress makes me hallucinate Trusted in some people that I knew were fake I'm dumb, special classes since the second grade I'm fucked always been a loser anyway I throw up all the red ciroc and lemonade From last night, I was scared to try her ketamine I passed out, wonder If somebody noticed me I'm blacked out, tell the world to get ahold of me I need help, and I ain't scared to say it cause I was then Nothing ever feel okay, always upset Used to beat up all my problems on a drum set Now I roll a gram but, I only got one left Oh no, what have I got myself into Swore I wouldn't do what my friends do But I always do like my friends do All my friends know each other but I have none If you like riddles, figure that one We were playing cops and robbers with our cap guns Now were running from the pink, dodging action Can't die that'll Can't die that'll give em satisfaction I won't lie im a little bit distracted Close my eyes and its hell under my mattress I can't keep at this Can't die I can't die Can't die I can't die Stress makes me hallucinate Trusted in some people that I knew were fake I'm dumb, special classes since the second grade I'm fucked always been a loser anyway I throw up all the red ciroc and lemonade From last night, I was scared to try her ketamine I passed out, wonder If somebody noticed me I'm blacked out I'm blacked out I'm blacked out I'm blacked out I'm blacked out