Anti - SOB X RBE

なぁ 俺が病気だって言える根拠なんかあんのかい 別にあんた喜ばすために産まれてきたんじゃない あんたとてそうでしょう 臭いものに蓋しよう 信じたいものだけを信じてきたんでしょう？ 小と中と高で必死こいて手にいれた 邪見と偏見と穿ったその思考を 取り払うのにもひと苦労 さぁ今日からはどうしよう あぁちくしょう 有象無象 もう騙されやしないぞ あんたがたどこさ 庇護さ どこ贔屓かってんで えっさほいさ生きた結果 これじゃ 仕方ないし 味気ないし いざって時は使えない 君のように 何気なく 『自由』に僕も飼われたい 見えてるものより見えないもの 知ってることより知らないことの方が 多いとは言うが そりゃどうだろうか もう疑うことばかり うまくなっても 信じたっていいでしょう？ 違ってたって何なの？ だからっていいことがあるわけじゃないんだし 幸か不幸かどうかは 僕に決めさせてよ 他は好き勝手 決めさせてやってるんだからさ 僕が怖いのかい なんで泣くんだい 理解ができない？ それは僕も一緒さ 「目を覚ましてよ」 何を言ってんの？ 一語一句違わず その気持ちも一緒さ 何も違わないんだ僕ら そうだ、泣くことなんてないんだ だから ママ顔上げて さぁ笑ってや 「幸せになってくれさえすればいいって」さ 言ってた 今僕は言うよ心から ハッピー ハッピー ハッピー ハッピー ハッピー ハッピー ハッピー ハッピー 産まれ変わったのであります これぞ真の姿なのです 今までの時間とはあなた様に巡り会うためのものだったのです わかります わかるのであります あなたの偉大さを 巨大さを 理解できる頭脳を与えてくださったことを ただただここに感謝いたします 家族にも話しました ダメでした はみ出したのは僕の方だなんて言われて 僕は我を忘れて殴りました 殴り続けました そしたらついに母は動かなくなったのです あなた様の敵は私の敵であるのです たとえそれが血の繋がった肉親であろうと 許すわけにはいかないのです ハナっから 自分に○を 僕に×をつけてさ 頭ごなしに 振りかざした その君の正義の 薄いこと 寒いこと 鼻で笑ってしまうよもう 君じゃないよ 『君の幸』の定義決めた奴は そう そう そう 見えてるものより見えないもの 知ってることより知らないことの方が 多いとは言うが そりゃどうだろうか もう疑うことばかり うまくなっても 信じたっていいでしょう？ 違ってたって何なの？ だからっていいことがあるわけじゃないんだし 信じたっていいでしょう？ 違ってたって何なの？ だからっていいことがあるわけじゃないんだし 幸か不幸かどうかは 僕に決めさせてよ 他は好き勝手 決めさせてやってるんだからさ

Head down on my therapist's couch She said this rage inside me has gotta come out All these years I've been pushing it down, it's like a poison Looking for the anger that's been trapped in my body She asked me what I'd do to you if no one could stop me And I can't lie, I'm hypnotized In the back of my mind I'd put a bullet in your fucking head I'd pull the trigger, now you're fucking dead It's my medication, I swear that it's making me wanna put a Bullet in your fucking head I'll blame it on the side effects Of my medication, these pills that I'm taking Anti, anti-repressant All the anxiety, it's been killing me quietly People fucking pleaser, that's my role in society Well, you play the victim in every crime you committed You say I should be committed and then label me addicted I'm sober now, these short stays are over now Ain't it funny how the pain you caused come back around I've been taking anti-repressants, you know they're highly effective And I'll be coming for you when you never expect it I'll put a bullet in your fucking head I'll pull the trigger now you're fucking dead It's my medication, I swear that it's making me wanna put a Bullet in your fucking head I'll blame it on the side effects Of my medication, these pills that I'm taking Anti, anti-repressant Anti, anti-repressant Anti, anti-repressant Anti, anti-repressant I'll put a bullet in your fucking head I'll pull the trigger now you're fucking dead It's my medication, I swear that it's making me wanna put a Bullet in your fucking head I'll blame it on the side effects Of my medication, these pills that I'm taking Anti, anti-repressant Anti, anti-repressant Anti, anti-repressant Anti, anti-repressant

I remember late nights all alone I remember long talks with my cousin through her phone RIP all of my niggas dead and gone Give it all to bring you back and to bring my niggas home These days I've been tryna get my life right I been blowin' out smoke in the night sky I just went and brought my grandma to a nice spot Until then I be thuggin' til my life stops Dreams about gettin' in the Wraith I'ma do it Big .40 on me when I'm in my city cruisin' Niggas come tripping, ain't no question I'ma use it Everybody say they with the shit til they prove it Deals on the table, ain't no waitin' let's get to it (let's get to it) All in her, baby late night I abuse it When I dive in, its like divin' in the pulpit If her boyfriend find out he gone lose it Yep and I'm just tryna get my life right (get my life right) I'm just tryna get a million in my lifetime (lifetime) Niggas get killed broad day at the stop light Was a nobody in the dark, now that light shine nigga I remember late nights all alone I remember long talks with my cousin through her phone R.I.P. all of my niggas dead and gone Give it all to bring you back and to bring my niggas home These days I've been tryna get my life right I been blowin' out smoke in the night sky I just went and brought my grandma to a nice spot Until then I be thuggin' til my life stops Never needed nobody, I get it by myself How you sayin' free a nigga, but won't put in on they bail I know niggas doin' time and they'll never ever tell And all this winnin' we been doin', you would think we never failed Nigga, quit that story tellin' If I take this nigga bitch, he gone be more than jealous I ain't lackin', fuck nigga, I be more than careful And them crackers lock me up, I don't do no confession Life a game of chess, you better learn to use your soldiers Streets cold as fuck, better learn that I get colder Niggas love talkin' head, 'til we knock it off they shoulder It be freezin' in the summer, we be ridin' wit them toasters I remember late nights all alone I remember long talks with my cousin through her phone R.I.P. all of my niggas dead and gone Give it all to bring you back and to bring my niggas home These days I've been tryna get my life right I been blowin' out smoke in the night sky I just went and brought my grandma to a nice spot Until then I be thuggin' til my life stops Young, wild nigga and I'm ridin' with the boo tucked Fuck a nigga slide out, he gon' get his boo fucked Soft ten on me, so I gotta put them blues up Coupe sport mode, so I ride with the roof up RIP all my thugs, fuck all you fuck niggas Shooter in the cuts, he'll plunk niggas You just lied to ya mans so I don't trust niggas Yellin' free the thugs 'til they wanna crack the gates Yellin' fuck the judge, 'til they wanna drop the case Back to back, rollin' up, Cookies to the face Back to back, kick doors, tryna get up in a Wraith, bitch! I remember late nights all alone I remember long talks with my cousin through her phone R.I.P. all of my niggas dead and gone Give it all to bring you back and to bring my niggas home These days I've been tryna get my life right I been blowin' out smoke in the night sky I just went and brought my grandma to a nice spot Until then I be thuggin' til my life stops