Been with you since grad school, no one else was like you For real Don't know a thing about you 'cause now I never asked you For real Drinking just to stay awake so I don't have to fall asleep Next to you There's so much more I'd rather do then lie in bed and counting sheep Like we do I dance another hour but I don't want to I take another shot still I don't want to These shots and squats are never fun without you Yeah drinking isn't fun enough without you Drinking every cup, like we never had enough, yeah We ruled Memories of the days when I couldn't get enough of you Red and blue There's many things I wanna do, oh, darling if you only knew If you knew Let's travel back in time and do the things that we used to Me and you I dance another hour but I don't want to I take another shot still I don't want to These shots and squats are never fun without you Yeah drinking isn't fun enough without you We dance another hour 'cause we want to We take another shot just 'cause we want to 'Cause shots and squats are never fun without you I'm just so fucking lucky to be with you I'm just so fucking lucky to be with you

Sometimes I look in the mirror and I don't like what I see And I wonder if she'll ever know the darker side of me Is my reflection just a shell of the truth? Am I the living or am I the dying proof I'm learning to move slow I'm learning to let go Im learning most things a man my age is supposed to know I'm learning how to write I'm learning how to sleep at night I'm learning after these years how to be thankful for what I got And I carry on With a heart of stone And calloused hands Sometimes I think I'm crazy washed up in the brain As for my youth I threw most of those years away And I can't even apologize for half the things I've done Or all the nights spent looking down the wrong end of a gun But I'm learning how to love I'm learning about the lord above I'm learning that he's giving me more than anything I could dream of I'm learning how to pray a little more everyday I'm learning to accept the things about me I can't change And I carry on with a heart of stone Calloused hands I'm learning to move slow I'm learning to let go Im learning most things a man my age is supposed to know I'm learning how to love I'm learning about the lord above I'm learning that she's given me more than anything I could dream of But I carry on with a heart of stone and calloused hands Yeah I carry on with this heart of stone and calloused hands

I've thought about it hell, about a million times. It takes all my strength just to keep it calm. But I'll have to tell myself, it's better just to breathe. Holding it inside, only help to do me in. Each time I close my eyes, I see another chain. It's one I can't forget, something I can not break out of. I need a second skin, something to hold me up. Can't seem to get out of this hole I've dug myself right back in. Just to wake up tells me, hell I must be brave. It hits me like a drug, shot into my veins. But it's not as delightful, delightful of a pain. Immobilizing me, Almost makes me think I'm dead. But I'll need a second skin, Something to hold me tough. Can't do it on my own, Sometimes I need just a little more help well. I've got that chance to give, every drop that's left in me. But I'll need that second skin, Something I can not break out of. But I'll just tell myself girl, just let it breathe. It's a calmness, I'm always searching for. But the dirt it gets so heavy, It falls above my head. Seeping from under my feet, It just keeps on getting deeper. I'll need a second skin, Something to hold me up. Can't do it on my own, Sometimes I need just a little more help well. I've got that chance to give, every drop that's left in me. But I'll need that second skin Something I cannot break free of. Though no one ever said it'd be easy. Still one's left to deny. The choice that comes between, Your willingness to survive. Now you're know what you stand up against, A world set to deceive. You need a special strength yeah. I've got that second skin. I've got that chance to give. I've got the only way that I know how to live with it. But I'll need that second skin, Something to hold me tough. I'll need a second skin, Something I can not break out of.

Awaken in a state it's not my own The only thing that's real Is that amongst these walls, I whisper to a fear that sleeps in my soul Weighting on my conscience, but I think I know It hurts me to be angry Kills me to be kind But my only torment Is my own disguise Waiting on these favors they only come to show There's not much in them for you to hold Awaken to the sudden fact that I've Simply wasted chances, but I'm not yet to die Waiting for my temperament to calm Well maybe they can't hear the crap behind these eyes It hurts me to be angry Kills me to be kind But my only torment Is my own disguise Waiting on the favors they only come to show There's not much in them for you to hold It starts to become something I can't touch but you can feel But there's something else surrounding me It's not easy to see Awaken to the only chance I've got Hide behind these walls, I look through the cracks I see the same mistakes that I once made All that I can tell you there is a price to pay It hurts me to be angry Kills me to be kind But my only torment Is my own disguise Waiting on these favors they only come to show There's not much in them for you to hold It starts to become something I can't touch but you can feel But there's something else surrounding me It's not easy to see It hurts me to be angry Kills me to be kind But my only torment Is my own disguise Waiting on these favors they only come to show There's not much in them at all

There goes your burning, you can't anticipate The things you push for now are just forgotten the next day And then you masturbate in your thoughts in our own eyes Then you push some things on us you wont let us deny There you go pushing us again Well, I wont always have to understand There you're setting your own life on lies, forget about tomorrow, we're here to survive You apologize and I accept it all on faith But still you do not try to push away your old mistakes. And now I find myself underhand to what you want, you think you'll find it better, child? Well, go out and find it all!

There are these people that use you for Their own need for deception By the size of their lies and The size of the stories that they're telling They've proved themselves to be Very small... minded Do you ever think when you're dealing with the worst The outcome is the best thing for you And by the good of evil is the knowledge That you face it (One day you're going to have to) I could put it in some theme of a tale Or a story from a myth But it means a simple thing I ain't worth nothing if there's no perspective Of truth in my life Do you ever think when you're dealing with the worst The outcome is the best thing for you And by the good of evil is the knowledge That you face it (One day you're gonna fucking have to) I think I've had enough I wonder why I don't just go off Don't like to be a violent woman But I know I have it in me I know I shouldn't be surprised Why some people look like hogs rolling in the mud It's a dying shame That's where some people find truth

Our insecurities, they bend us down on broken knees Our insecurities, we wear them till we cannot see The crap the shit the garbage our mind it has to swallow; It makes us enemies, building up mistrust with greed Turns me to shut the door and hide away while time gets lost Your ignorant response can leave you looking of a beast (Chorus) And when you're pushing me away You're scared you'll get too much And when you're playing the jester Well I guess you ought to Or else it might mirror a flaw that lies in you Oh damn your insecurities Not always insecure, but bold on what you think is right I hope you break the crown before you plate it on your head (Chorus) Oh damn your insecurities, they're catching up with you