Among Friends - Portrayal of Guilt

Don't think you know me Not everyone is who they seem to be Do not trust your instincts Or the words you read Or faces you see Start sleeping with the light on The things you'll see Are far beyond doubt You don't need your eyes anymore Open them to see me, rip them out No symptoms can describe This fracture that I feel I'm the enemy in the end A victim among your friends You still want to see Some worth hidden inside of me Don't fool yourself again You were my victim, not my friend No symptoms to describe This nothing that I feel inside No soul to leave me paralyzed You were never my friend An emptiness only I can see To me it's a gift, not a disease Want me to hurt you Just say please I was never your friend No symptoms can describe This fracture that I feel I'm the enemy in the end A victim among your friends You still want to see Some worth hidden inside of me Don't fool yourself again You were my victim, not my friend You were never my friend I was never your fiend No symptoms to describe This fracture that I feel I'm the enemy in the end A victim among your friends You still want to see Some worth hidden inside of me Don't fool yourself again You were my victim Not my fucking friend! I was never your friend

Bathing in agony. Covered in shame. These walls cave in. Only myself to blame. Pill after pill, I prepare myself for the morning ahead. My body folds, writhing in pain. No one is here for me. Bathing in agony. Covered in shame. I listen to the running water. It fills the bathtub slowly. I am trampled by thoughts. Weighed down by memories. I lay my head still, welcoming an infinite sleep. My sacrifice for you. An endless cycle of ache. Still conscious, I am paralyzed. Eyes wide open, staring aimlessly. Water begins to fill the floor. Rising slowly, so poetically. I begin to choke, this is what I crave. I am a masochist, in my blood I bathe. Drowning in my own self-hatred, I can feel my lungs as they begin to fail. Bathing in agony. Covered in shame. This burden of living never seems to end. As I lay my body and take the devil's hand. In this holy water. In this chamber of sin. Born into filth. I die alone.

Carve your name into my skin. The lacerations open as she drags the glass down my arm, Leaving the shard stained in blood. The air grows cold. I couldn't bear it. Stained in blood. I couldn't bear it. The air grows cold. I couldn't bear it. I couldn't bear reality. In this empty house, slowly bleeding out. Her tongue caresses the open wound, I feel her hands wrap around my neck. Her tongue caresses the open wound, I feel her hands wrap around my neck. Her tongue caresses the open wound, I feel her. Bringing a sense of stillness, The wind passes through the broken window above As I suffocate to death.

Spit in the face of the corporation Shovel away the dirt and blood The walls of this place are much colder They can weep at my feet They can beg for mercy They can weep at my feet They can beg for mercy Weep at my feet, beg for mercy Weep at my feet, beg for mercy Weep at my feet, beg for mercy Weep at my feet, beg for mercy Will you be mine when the gates finally open? Suffering for a single release Pain only numbs me for the next time For the last time Plagued by fear, I lay here paralyzed My demons are at war above me Winner take all, I accept my fate I become one with myself and the world around me