A Letter - Jacob's Piano

Everybody wants a reason for everything It's so much easier with someone or something to blame I've always struggled at the root of the problem Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense? I've never spent a lot on finding a remedy I guess I figured that it hurts for a reason I guess that's why I've always turned to writing it down Not just in stories but the letters in between And I guess that's why it haunts the pages of everything To self-examine I think the thing is that I shut off from everything From friends and family and my own ambitions From having fun I just shut off from everything Self-defeating? Yeah, probably But I don't know that I had total control over it And I'm not sure it even matters why Sometimes things happen and you can't do anything Plus, I'm the only one who deals with it anyway So if everyone could do me a favor and Just put their fingers down I'd-and keep your mouths Sorry, I know I seem angry I'm not, I, I promise, I just know I did this to me And I will deal with it accordingly And I don't need opinions from those never a part of it Don't need them pointing out my problems, they're mine Don't need reminders, I know better than anyone And yeah, I know, I should be finding another way I know that I should be out seeking a substitute But just forgetting never really made sense to me So I haven't been Do I feel embarrassed about it? I think you know the answer to that I think you'd probably feel a little bit embarrassed for me Wouldn't you? I know I should've moved on ages ago, been happy already But it's never been that easy for me Or maybe it was me that made it so hard I know I've only ever tried a handful of times To sever this thing torturing me It never got me anywhere, with anyone No friendship or hobby, no lover's bed worked But looking back I maybe never tried hard enough And it is my fault Maybe I never tried at all

Write me a letter Write me a letter Write it today I'm goin' away (yes it has)Write me a letter Write me a letter Write it today I'm goin' away (yes it is)Well I've been away forever Suicide's crossin' my mind Well I'll never, never get so far behind I said, the ways of the night are evil Without that lord of day But I'll never, never get so far away I said write me Write me Write me Write me I said write me Write me Write me Well there's nothin' I can see That'd ever make me Want to be without her She's good, she good to me Said there's no way to explain The kind of feelin' that you get out in the She good, she good to me She good, she good to me I love her Write me a letter Write me a letter Write it today I'm goin' away (yes it has)Write me a letter Write me a letter Write it today I'm goin' away (yes it is)Well I've been away forever Suicide's crossin' my mind Well I'll never, never get so far behind Well I've been so many places Hidin' from the wind and the rain But you could write me a letter For to save me from goin' insane Write me Excite me Write me Write me Write me Write me...

They know what everybody knows Better sit, a letter from a thief says Why lead when everybody sleeps? So few ways to cover up the old wounds Lost in a finger forced to lie This sends us medicating through it all If you ever enter my mind Stay there, you'll live Defend it off, and fool them all Stay there Faceless, so little there to judge Left wing, let's separate the cold out Opposites, we'll never need to tell One sting, I've found I'm having to I'm having to If you ever enter my mind Stay there, you'll live Defend it off, and fool them all Stay there, you'll live Defend it off, and fool them all Solitude Waste of a man This fades as soon as the sun sets I now own this fatal role that lives Imagine here's a better feel Told to dissolve or choose to fade Or stay here, you'll live If you ever enter my mind Stay there, you'll live Defend it off,, and fool them all Stay there, you'll live If you ever enter my mind Stay there, you'll live Defend it off,, and fool them all Stay there