אם הייתי - Eden Gavriel

חשבתי שבסוף הכל יהיה בסדר יריתי מילים באוויר הרסתי כל רגע נדיר צעקת נסגרת לבדך שם בחדר כבר התביישו השכנים אולי לא מצאתי מילים, תדע לך אם רק היית אומר הייתי חוזרת פחות מדברת אולי אוספת ממך מילים שהיית זורק הייתי שומרת שומרת ממך שומרת אותך בשבילי חשבתי שבסוף הכל יהיה בסדר ולא נתרסק לרסיסים עוד רגע נרים ת'תריסים צעקתי מילים שלכלכו את החדר הערתי את כל השדים עכשיו כבר קשה להשלים, תדע לך שאם רק היית אומר הייתי חוזרת פחות מדברת אולי אוספת ממך מילים שהיית זורק הייתי שומרת שומרת ממך שומרת אותך בשבילי ורציתי להיות לבד בלי אחד שרק ידאג וישאל מה קורה לי אם רק היית אומר הייתי חוזרת פחות מדברת אולי אוספת ממך מילים שהיית זורק הייתי שומרת שומרת ממך שומרת אותך בשבילי חשבתי שבסוף הכל יהיה בסדר

There's a wind blowing in Well I didn't expect it Hard to accept it Gusting in at top speed Might just knock me me off of my feet But there's a voice kicking in Saying I know you can't stop this But trust me you've got this The winds have something to teach That there's nothing outta your reach When there's a test on my plate It's up to me to choose to say I'm gonna face it and embrace it And I'm not gonna run away, no And maybe this moment is a challenge But I'm not giving up You gave me the tools the strengths the talents And You're always there to lift me up And when I lose my balance And throw up my hands Well it's a chance That you're giving to me To see I've got it in me And maybe this moment is a challenge But I'm not giving up You gave me the tools the strengths the talents And you're always there to lift me up And when I lose my balance And throw up my hands Well it's a chance That you're giving to me To see What I am made of You are the King of everything You are the One who knows me The One who chose me And it's not a piece of cake Yet I know You don't make mistakes Years from now down the line I bet I'd rather be the kind Who looks back and says "I did it" And not "what if I'd have tried, no" And maybe this moment is a challenge But I'm not giving up! You gave me the tools the strengths the talents And you're always there to lift me up And when I lose my balance And throw up my hands Well it's a chance That You're giving to me To see I've got it in me And maybe this moment is a challenge But I'm not giving up! You gave me the tools the strengths the talents And you're always there to lift me up And when I lose my balance And throw up my hands Well it's a chance That You're giving to me To see What I am made of

What happens when the words gets lost inside When the silent tears keep falling and thoughts run dry If I sit and hold a siddur and it's the best that I can do If don't have the words can I still try to talk to You I've been trying since the day I learned to read But some days I just can't ask for what I need And what if I'm afraid that You're not proud of what You see If I don't have the words, can I still feel You talk to me Maybe all You want from me is a broken heart Maybe nothing's as complete as a broken heart You're listening when I can't find the words My pleas are not unseen and my voice not unheard In the little prayer that flows from my broken heart Can You somehow draw me close when I feel so far Surely You who shapes my story part by part Can hear a song that's whole from a broken heart I'm learning that there's no one time or place And that nobody's too small to feel Your embrace And I am learning that You wait to hear my voice To You it's sweet I close my eyes and connect as I repeat Maybe all You want from me is a broken heart Maybe nothing's as complete as a broken heart You're listening when I can't find the words My pleas are not unseen and my voice not unheard In the little prayer that flows from my broken heart You will somehow draw me close when I feel so far Surely You who shapes my story part by part You can hear a song that's whole from a broken heart

I used to wake up with that heavy feeling Were the sun was trying hard to shine But I couldn't see With all the plans I had to make And all the tasks I had to do And who else could fix the world's problems If not me I had to be the one with answers to the questions The one with the lists and the solutions And the goals And who could ever spare a minute to let heaven decide When I was busy fighting fear with my control And so I sat there with my worries And let them weigh me down Turning to myself for answers Where there were none to be found No matter what happens I'll be ok He's with me every step Of the way No matter what happens I'll be ok If I know Who's making the day No matter what happens I'll be ok He's with me every step Of the way No matter what happens I'll be ok If I know Who's making the day So these days I'm waking up With a whole new feeling The sun can shine Without me telling it how to be My jobs to smile, do my best And tell myself on repeat I know who can fix the world's problems It ain't me No, won't sit here with my worries And let them me weigh me down If I can place them in His Hands And watch Him turn it around No matter what happens I'll be ok He's with me every step Of the way No matter what happens I'll be ok He's with me every step of my day No matter what happens I'll be ok He's with me every step Of the way No matter what happens I'll be ok He's with me every step of my day

Who'd believe that we're still standing We should be done we should be gone The times we've seen - pretty demanding But we took it like a champion We've been bullied and beaten Again and again But it doesn't take the fire out of us Our strength can be hidden- the secret of Yidden He's cheering us on and He's proud of us חזק חזק חזק We're unbreakable you and me We're not gonna stop חזק חזק Beating the odds with our unity Because after all is said and done - It's an attitude - Of strength that powers us on As long as we brave the hustle Just bring it on חזק When the road keeps feeling longer We'll step it up a little bit Our ideals, they'll keep growing stronger Together we can handle it You'll give me the push and I'll pull you through Making stepping stones out of the rocks איש את רעהו יעזורו ולאחיו יאמר חזק חזק חזק חזק We're unbreakable you and me We're not gonna stop חזק חזק Beating the odds with our unity Because after all is said and done - It's an attitude - Of strength that powers us on As long as we brave the hustle Just bring it on חזק חזק חזק ונתחזק חזק חזק ונתחזק Ooh, we will be strong We will be strong חזק חזק ונתחזק חזק חזק ונתחזק Ooh, we will be strong חזק חזק חזק We're unbreakable you and me We're not gonna stop חזק חזק Beating the odds with our unity Because after all is said and done - It's an attitude - Of strength that powers us on As long as we brave the hustle Just bring it on חזק