19 - Charlie Houston

明日になれば私 何か変わっちゃうかな どうにもこうにも 想像がつかない 小中高と進んで 逃げ方も覚えた 自殺者を笑い その勇気に拍手して カメラを片手に ギターを背負い 人の話さえも かすんでく 手放したもの 偽物だったから もう いらない 必要ない 大人になるたびに 夢見てばかりの自分が嫌になり 数えられるほどの 痛みと苦しみでかき消すんだ 現実逃避を 繰り返す日々は 思えば楽だった 最高の友達でした 18の今言えることは一つ あの日の記憶は消えますか 手に取れる物 それは全て欲しい けど 今で十分な気がする 大人になるたびに 見たくないものを見ては 泣いちゃうし 本当の自分に気づくことは少し怖いんだ 18の今思うことが一つ 何故人は減る命に祝いを捧げるの 強くはなりたい でも弱くもありたい 私のままでいたい 思い出せないもの どこかに忘れてしまった宝物 一度握った手も 知らぬ間に離れてしまったんだ 大人になるたびに 見たくないものを見ては 泣いちゃうし 本当の自分に 気づくことは少し怖いんだ

午飯前相聚 放學到公園去 喜愛狂追逐 同學笑我們登對 創世界之最 疼你永不減退 約定十九歲 可以到白頭 到老年去 搭膊頭 手牽手 愛字最怕說出口 信天長地久 別說曾經擁有 也許有天 一切都要變 身邊一切都要變 你我不見 總會發現 你在我背面 常在我心裡面 也許有天 一切都要變 身邊一切都會變 你我不見 街里碰面 會令誰突發心軟 改天再遇見 一切繼續變 你活在我心裡面 有試過恐懼 要如何親你的嘴 有試過恐懼 有一天你離開我 別要我面對 連偶像都引退 告別十九歲 世界總要我面對 也許有天 一切都要變 身邊一切都要變 你我不見 總會發現 你在我背面 常在我心裡面 也許有天 一切都要變 身邊一切都會變 你我不見 街里碰面 會令誰突發心軟 不想繼續變 我會不要臉 走到你面前 像一切 從未變

You are my sun, and you brought light into my world, Dragged me from waters where I'd become submerged. Before I could sing, but my words came out cracked and broke. When I say I love you it never means enough. When I think about all of those nights, All of those songs how they all fall apart - When I think every single time, How those words of ours never lost out

If I changed my mind If I changed my faith Every time a stop light signaled Each time I made mistakes I don't think that I would be where I am today I live my life without regrets What you see is, what you see is What you see is what you get and I'm Unashamed of the life I lead Unashamed of the strength on my knees The choices I've made, of the love that I've saved Of things I've done, my belief in the one Unashamed of the words of my friends I know who they are make mistakes, make amends Follow my instincts, my star, on my sleeve I wear my heart Unashamed, unashamed Adding up my life, it totals all my dreams I'm counting all my blessings and the gifts I have received Still there's always someone, something to overcome Took all my life to understand that I am what I am, who I am Unashamed Unashamed of the life I lead Unashamed of the strength on my knees The choices I've made, of the love that I've saved Of things I've done, my belief in the one Unashamed of the words of my friends I know who they are make mistakes, make amends Follow my instincts, my star, on my sleeve I wear my heart Unashamed Do you wanna know how it goes? Do you wanna control how I feel? Do you wanna stay in my life? Then listen here and listen good You got to get it, got to get it, got to get it right Unashamed Unashamed of the life I lead Unashamed of the strength on my knees The choices I've made, of the love that I've saved Of things I've done, my belief in the one Unashamed of the words of my friends I know who they are make mistakes, make amends Follow my instincts, my star, on my sleeve I wear my heart Unashamed Unashamed of the life I lead Unashamed of the strength on my knees The choices I've made, of the love that I've saved Of things I've done, my belief in the one Unashamed of the words of my friends I know who they are make mistakes, make amends Follow my instincts, my star, on my sleeve I wear my heart Unashamed

Got me a postcard and a twenty dollar bill I told you I'd meet you in Memphis if you bring me those pills And I got high and I got dry for far too long And the gypsy train to Houston is gonna take me along They called me the wild card And they called me their fool I told them I'd bring 'em that money If they'd get me back to you And I got cash and I got robbed for all I own And the gypsy train to Houston is gonna take me back home I got clean and I got a steady job No longer was I running from the emblems of the law And I got clean and I got mean to the bone And the gypsy train to Houston won't leave me alone And the gypsy train to Houston won't leave me alone

Oh, pour me up a drink, there's a bottle and a seat I'm only halfway to crazy by now We're past that breaking point, past that road of choice And there ain't nothin' left in this town I thought by now I'd've figured shit out You and me, we got some bad reputations We dance 'round like thieves in the night I bet your halo could use some reconsideration But it's the only thing that makes this all right Heaven knows time ain't slowin' down Yeah, we still kick around Our same ol' stomping grounds And life, it'll pass you by As you drink all through the night Under a Houston County sky So roll me up a smoke, I'll take a toke for hope I'm only halfway to 80 by now You was a Peanut Queen, I was 17 and mean You wanted so bad to leave this town Ain't it funny how it all works out Ain't nothin' left but making love and raising babies There ain't nothing wrong with the simple life Hey darling, I love you, but the smoke is gettin' hazy Maybe we should just get drunk and fight Down at The Gin on a Saturday night Heaven knows time ain't slowin' down Yeah, we still kick around Our same ol' stomping grounds And life, it'll pass you by As you drink all through the night Under a Houston County sky Heaven knows time ain't slowin' down Yeah, we still kick around Our same ol' stomping grounds And life, it'll pass you by As you drink all through the night Under a Houston County sky A Houston County sky A Houston County sky